So Chase is wonderful....
So
today, Chase like made my day. I'm not ganna tell you everything that
we talked about, but basicly he made me feel So happy, which i haven't
felt in to long. He talked to me, and even thought we haven't talked in
like a month literally, we talked for an hour while he was at work, and
he just made me feel so much better about everything thats going on,
and actully made me truly laugh. And he totally (unawarivly) made me
laugh so much. It was something that I needed. I'm not trying to be a
cry baby, or a drama queen, or make people think that i'm just
complaining, but seriously, the past month has been REALLY hard, and i
have noticed that I go through these phases where I lose all of my
friends and then they all blame it on me, and its MY fault that they're
mad at me, and its MY fault that they think i'm bitch and moody.....but
if anyof them actully knew what was going onbesides the simple fact
that my parents are going through a REALLY nasty divorce, but there's
other stuff that is going on. And just because I choose not to talk
about it, they get all uptight and bitchy. Its really so immature. But
Alllie! Ur so adorable! In math! haha U make me laugh. "Come ooooover
here!" lol and i'm sorry I ditched u two day's ago at break! Please
forgive me! :):):):) And Nikki, CUTE necklace that U were wearing
today. Chase, thank you so much. I know this sounds really stupid, but
U made me smile, which i haven't done with out forcing myself. I feel
bad because I really do have supportive people, like my almost everyone
except two people in my theater class have offered there support, which
is so fucking nice because I was so worried that they would be pissed
that i have been....out of character. Thanks everyone
xoxo
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xoxo
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