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I've never regretted it until tonight. Still not even at first, just now, now I just wish. Maybe I ask too much of people. Maybe i'm destined to lead a life of loneliness because it seems that in the end that's all i'll ever know. So much i've just given up on, yet here's the one thing I can't bring myself to walk away from and I can't figure out why. You know I don't ask for much, I just feel that I have the right to be treated like a princess. I didn't really get it at all growing up, so why can't I expect it now? Don't I deserve it, or is that asking too much. Why can't I just leave, leave this place and all of it behind? I mean could you find two people more opposite then us? I want to travel and see the world, I want more out of life than this, but I want him, and I don't know if I can have both anymore. I've all ready given up soo much, how much more do I have to give. Why did I leave? Why didn't I stay? Why did I become soo afraid to face things alone? Why am I soo damn afraid of change that when I see it coming I run. Why did I run? I don't want to be here anymore, so why can't I run this time? How can he just blow me off like that, like it doesn't even matter to him, how? I just need to get out of this house.