Too much thinking

[alaskaarmybrat]

The only thing I don't like about nights like this is it gives me entirely too much time to think. I hate thinking, I do truly wish that I could get my mind to stop it sometimes. I was fine, and finally doing well until I was told about something. Why is it, just when things get straight in my head, the one thing that screws it up, shows up. There are just too many un anwered questions I wish I could have the answer too, though i know that if it did ever happen, I wouldn't be able to know if it was true or not. I just wish for once, just once, why does it drive me crazy so. Everything else I understand, I truly do. I just sometimes wonder. If maybe I hadn't been so afraid to stick up for myself, alone, if things wouldn't.

Anyways, I'm going to go back to my better self. My puppy is cute, and won't leave my side. I love it. Anywho, I think i'm going to go now.