I'm not sure I know how to do this anymore
It's been a while. I just haven't known what to say. Things are going good. All the puzzle pieces are fitting together. Tonight is the first night I haven't been able to fall asleep in a while. There's just so much on my mind. So many things i'm trying to figure out in my head.
I may have some opputurnities to go down and help out with the disaster in the Gulf Coast. I just don't know if I would be of any actual help though. I'm just and admin clerk, i'm not sure if I could do what they need. I've been thinking about seeing if I could anyways. I'm just afraid though. I mean i'm only 20, I look like i'm 12 and one snap and you could break all my bones. I know I shouldn't worry about things like that, i'm sure if I went I would be perfectly okay, but still. I just hate sitting back and trying to avoid it, but it's kind of hard when you work for the Emergency Office for your State, makes things very difficult. Not to mention my boss happens to be one of the most wanted people to talk to by major media these days. Then on top of that I don't know when I have to watch what I say and what's ok to say. I feel like I work in some top seceret office, but I don't. It's just difficult sometimes.
Ben and I are doing well. Looking forward to Florida, I need a vacation. Though my idea of a vacation is one where i'm all on my own and can finally clear out my head. My computer is suddenly acting very strange and it's freaking me out. There's so much on my mind that I don't know how to get out. I sometimes think one thing, then twenty minutes later i've changed my mind again. I just wish I knew what I wanted right now. I wish I was still in school. I hate putting it off like this, but I have to weigh it against being 40 thousand dollars in debt. I just, can't stop thinking about everything else. I need to go to sleep. Why can't life be like tv shows sometimes?
I may have some opputurnities to go down and help out with the disaster in the Gulf Coast. I just don't know if I would be of any actual help though. I'm just and admin clerk, i'm not sure if I could do what they need. I've been thinking about seeing if I could anyways. I'm just afraid though. I mean i'm only 20, I look like i'm 12 and one snap and you could break all my bones. I know I shouldn't worry about things like that, i'm sure if I went I would be perfectly okay, but still. I just hate sitting back and trying to avoid it, but it's kind of hard when you work for the Emergency Office for your State, makes things very difficult. Not to mention my boss happens to be one of the most wanted people to talk to by major media these days. Then on top of that I don't know when I have to watch what I say and what's ok to say. I feel like I work in some top seceret office, but I don't. It's just difficult sometimes.
Ben and I are doing well. Looking forward to Florida, I need a vacation. Though my idea of a vacation is one where i'm all on my own and can finally clear out my head. My computer is suddenly acting very strange and it's freaking me out. There's so much on my mind that I don't know how to get out. I sometimes think one thing, then twenty minutes later i've changed my mind again. I just wish I knew what I wanted right now. I wish I was still in school. I hate putting it off like this, but I have to weigh it against being 40 thousand dollars in debt. I just, can't stop thinking about everything else. I need to go to sleep. Why can't life be like tv shows sometimes?