if only to get lost for a bit.
i have been listening to this one song on repeat for hours. i cant afford to slow down sometimes but i wish i could. im restless, going blind. theres a lot to update about except not.
lately ive been looking up google destinations for places we can run away/drive to for just a day, plane tickets to nyc or la or chicago wondering if i should buy them and if i could make it back before the midnight hour. des moines just doesnt have enough to keep me here and keep me sane yet at the same time has everything else i need to keep safe.
weve taken to calling the one day i pretend to go to work our mondays together. the countdown including tomorrow is exactly six. three days after that ill disappear for about fiftytwo before the next four we know we can carelessly take for granted.
my mom and i talked for about an hour, she kept encouraging me to get back with a couple of my exes or that guy i dont really know who just graduated top of his class from a wellrounded private university.
lately ive been looking up google destinations for places we can run away/drive to for just a day, plane tickets to nyc or la or chicago wondering if i should buy them and if i could make it back before the midnight hour. des moines just doesnt have enough to keep me here and keep me sane yet at the same time has everything else i need to keep safe.
weve taken to calling the one day i pretend to go to work our mondays together. the countdown including tomorrow is exactly six. three days after that ill disappear for about fiftytwo before the next four we know we can carelessly take for granted.
my mom and i talked for about an hour, she kept encouraging me to get back with a couple of my exes or that guy i dont really know who just graduated top of his class from a wellrounded private university.