Dilemma & Something 2 Enjoy
I am, once again, trying create comfort in my mind and my heart. I remembered what I felt when I first told about the description of the job I'm doing right now: FEAR.
Of course, writing is my joy, beside music and drawing. Making a story is what I did most naturally since I was about five or six years old. But hey, this is a teen magazine, for God sake, I have to know about celebrities and korean drama loved by nowadays teens in my country. Helloo? I'm not even that much in to celebrities or being a fan of something when I was still in my teenage years. Instead of watching dramas at tv, I endorsed myself at solving math problems. How could I become an up to date person now that I'm already an adult? I still love math, for your information! These words were screaming in my thoughts: "I CAN NOT DO IT! I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO DO IT! THIS JOB IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME! THEY WOULD NEVER CALLED ME AGAIN AND I WOULD FEEL RELIEVED!
but taadaaa!!! they called me again, and here I am, taking a job that I fear so much, still wavering between enjoying the moment and fearing the job.
But in the end, despite the pressure to learn about today's celebrities and dramas feed on to teenagers, I kind of enjoy working hear. Despite being the most person who know nothing at the office, I still enjoy writing, even for this magazine (though I would prefer to write about topics that I really like without having too much thought on how I should make my writings match the style of my magazine)... soo, no matter what the result of this two months of probation, I will do my best in here.
I told my mum that I really don't think I could pass successfully, since there's a rumor about only one person would be chosen for the empty position, and my supposedly "competitor" have a two years of experiences in another magazine, plus she's a person who know a lot of thing about lifestyle and teenagers, while all I know is what we have learn at school and at college, ha ha ha... I think that was why my father is still insisting me to search another job... probably...
song: Eureka, composed by Sato Naoki (Eureka 7 ost)
Of course, writing is my joy, beside music and drawing. Making a story is what I did most naturally since I was about five or six years old. But hey, this is a teen magazine, for God sake, I have to know about celebrities and korean drama loved by nowadays teens in my country. Helloo? I'm not even that much in to celebrities or being a fan of something when I was still in my teenage years. Instead of watching dramas at tv, I endorsed myself at solving math problems. How could I become an up to date person now that I'm already an adult? I still love math, for your information! These words were screaming in my thoughts: "I CAN NOT DO IT! I WOULDN'T BE ABLE TO DO IT! THIS JOB IS IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME! THEY WOULD NEVER CALLED ME AGAIN AND I WOULD FEEL RELIEVED!
but taadaaa!!! they called me again, and here I am, taking a job that I fear so much, still wavering between enjoying the moment and fearing the job.
But in the end, despite the pressure to learn about today's celebrities and dramas feed on to teenagers, I kind of enjoy working hear. Despite being the most person who know nothing at the office, I still enjoy writing, even for this magazine (though I would prefer to write about topics that I really like without having too much thought on how I should make my writings match the style of my magazine)... soo, no matter what the result of this two months of probation, I will do my best in here.
I told my mum that I really don't think I could pass successfully, since there's a rumor about only one person would be chosen for the empty position, and my supposedly "competitor" have a two years of experiences in another magazine, plus she's a person who know a lot of thing about lifestyle and teenagers, while all I know is what we have learn at school and at college, ha ha ha... I think that was why my father is still insisting me to search another job... probably...
song: Eureka, composed by Sato Naoki (Eureka 7 ost)