all settled!
i moved out of my house on friday.
for the first time, my home address is no longer on silver bluff drive. i now reside in signal hill, ca on ridgeview terrace drive. so far it feels okay.
of course it does. i live amongst my friends, my sisters. in a million dollae home, overlooking the city of long beach. it has everything any young, dumb, broke college student could dream of. there are a few downsides though: i live in the smallest room with the bunk beds, and im on top. the girl who lived in my room before me hasnt completely moved out, so im sleeping in another girls room until thats taken care of. and theres never enough room in the 2 fridges and freezers we have to store the food. and there are 2 girls with bad attitudes that live above me but i can get over it. they are all small petty things.
school starts on tuesday. in a way, im so excited. i cant wait to buy all my books, make some new friends, and start a routine that will last me an entire semester. summer was great, but its time for it to be over, and life to really start up again.
blake told me he loved me last night. i practically froze on the phone, and i couldnt think of anything to say. hed been talking about how there were a few times hed wanted to say it to me, but it didnt seem right. then all of a sudden, were starting to say good bye at 3:30am and he blurts out "i love you alanna". i couldnt say it back. saying it back would mean that in the year hes gone, ill be waiting for him. that on the day he comes back from iraq, ill be there to welcome him. i cant promise that sort of thing right now. i want to say it, i really do. i want to love him back, but its hard. i cant. not yet. im so close, but i cant say it unless i mean it with my everything, with 100% of my entire being. im made that mistake before. right now, hes gone for a month, i guess a foreshadowing of things to come. its hard because i miss him so much, but itll go by soon. its just a month . . .
♥
for the first time, my home address is no longer on silver bluff drive. i now reside in signal hill, ca on ridgeview terrace drive. so far it feels okay.
of course it does. i live amongst my friends, my sisters. in a million dollae home, overlooking the city of long beach. it has everything any young, dumb, broke college student could dream of. there are a few downsides though: i live in the smallest room with the bunk beds, and im on top. the girl who lived in my room before me hasnt completely moved out, so im sleeping in another girls room until thats taken care of. and theres never enough room in the 2 fridges and freezers we have to store the food. and there are 2 girls with bad attitudes that live above me but i can get over it. they are all small petty things.
school starts on tuesday. in a way, im so excited. i cant wait to buy all my books, make some new friends, and start a routine that will last me an entire semester. summer was great, but its time for it to be over, and life to really start up again.
blake told me he loved me last night. i practically froze on the phone, and i couldnt think of anything to say. hed been talking about how there were a few times hed wanted to say it to me, but it didnt seem right. then all of a sudden, were starting to say good bye at 3:30am and he blurts out "i love you alanna". i couldnt say it back. saying it back would mean that in the year hes gone, ill be waiting for him. that on the day he comes back from iraq, ill be there to welcome him. i cant promise that sort of thing right now. i want to say it, i really do. i want to love him back, but its hard. i cant. not yet. im so close, but i cant say it unless i mean it with my everything, with 100% of my entire being. im made that mistake before. right now, hes gone for a month, i guess a foreshadowing of things to come. its hard because i miss him so much, but itll go by soon. its just a month . . .
♥