ho, ho, ho, and shit
I was a day early yesterday but today is actually the Winter Solstice so yay! Even those this is the shortest day of the year it means a gradual return of the sun (light) and that is always a good thing--esp. for those of us with S.A.D.
I was disappointed that I didn't make it out to The Depot on Saturday but pleased I managed to still go to the free screening of The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. It was good but I think I have to say the original was better. I like to give the books a go. Books are almost always better than movies anyway.
Therapy last night and that was an ordeal to get there. I left work a 1/2 hour early and damn if it didn't take me most of that time from 4:30 to 7 p.m. to get there. Managed to choke down some food from Boston Market before the session. I felt like I need an adult-like beverage by the time I got there or 10. ;) Therapy went better than I expected and I felt like it was .... validating.
Prozac was bumped from 10 mg to 20 mg over the weekend. Not sure if it is stabilizing my mood or what. I feel more... "o.k." and less "blah blues" so I guess that means it does something. My only issue is I am having problems sleeping. I don't have acupuncture for just over another week so no sleep tweeking until then. :(
Sinuses are still acting like little whiny bitches but hopefully I will live through it. It is like I'm allergic to Christmas since it started up around Thanksgiving. :P
Thankful that only a few more days of stupidity and the holiday will be over.
Work screwed up and proceeded to not take out FSA so I got two credits to my account for my pay check but the smaller amount is my actual check. :( I seriously could use that big chunk of extra money and since it has shown as coming in my bank account is lying about how much money I really have until everything clears. :/ I doubt we are getting any bonus type thing this year. We actually were suppose to get paid tomorrow so I guess that is the bonus. I need to pay rent with this check but there is no way I'm going anywhere near a post-office or retail place to get a money order until after Christmas. I just have to make sure not to over-spend what is in the bank until then. Maybe I'll be surprised tomorrow by something nice but I'm not holding my breath.
As for Christmas. My dad works the night before and doesn't get off until 7 a.m. that morning so I'm going over to the parental units on Christmas day and spending that night there. I would come over Christmas Eve but that would leave the cats alone for two days and I like to be enjoy part of my three-day weekend at my own place. I'm wondering if the movie pass I have I can use to see a movie on Saturday (Christmas Eve). I have to find it and look. Maybe I might lurk out of my house or depending on the hours of some places I might go out and use my Living Social deal for sushi.
My therapist has an attitude of do what you can when you can and try to not be down about the things you didn't or couldn't do. I think I'm always so focused on the things I don't have or can't do or experience that I'm just so bitter and angry all the time. I need to try to be more.... it's o.k. about things. Again, I didn't go out Saturday night but I did go out and do something (albeit alone) on Monday night. Just doing out and being around people even if I am by myself (i.e. my own company) is still better than nothing and I should give myself credit.
Now... if only I could get some sleep I be a lot more agreeable.
I was disappointed that I didn't make it out to The Depot on Saturday but pleased I managed to still go to the free screening of The Girl with the Dragon Tattoo. It was good but I think I have to say the original was better. I like to give the books a go. Books are almost always better than movies anyway.
Therapy last night and that was an ordeal to get there. I left work a 1/2 hour early and damn if it didn't take me most of that time from 4:30 to 7 p.m. to get there. Managed to choke down some food from Boston Market before the session. I felt like I need an adult-like beverage by the time I got there or 10. ;) Therapy went better than I expected and I felt like it was .... validating.
Prozac was bumped from 10 mg to 20 mg over the weekend. Not sure if it is stabilizing my mood or what. I feel more... "o.k." and less "blah blues" so I guess that means it does something. My only issue is I am having problems sleeping. I don't have acupuncture for just over another week so no sleep tweeking until then. :(
Sinuses are still acting like little whiny bitches but hopefully I will live through it. It is like I'm allergic to Christmas since it started up around Thanksgiving. :P
Thankful that only a few more days of stupidity and the holiday will be over.
Work screwed up and proceeded to not take out FSA so I got two credits to my account for my pay check but the smaller amount is my actual check. :( I seriously could use that big chunk of extra money and since it has shown as coming in my bank account is lying about how much money I really have until everything clears. :/ I doubt we are getting any bonus type thing this year. We actually were suppose to get paid tomorrow so I guess that is the bonus. I need to pay rent with this check but there is no way I'm going anywhere near a post-office or retail place to get a money order until after Christmas. I just have to make sure not to over-spend what is in the bank until then. Maybe I'll be surprised tomorrow by something nice but I'm not holding my breath.
As for Christmas. My dad works the night before and doesn't get off until 7 a.m. that morning so I'm going over to the parental units on Christmas day and spending that night there. I would come over Christmas Eve but that would leave the cats alone for two days and I like to be enjoy part of my three-day weekend at my own place. I'm wondering if the movie pass I have I can use to see a movie on Saturday (Christmas Eve). I have to find it and look. Maybe I might lurk out of my house or depending on the hours of some places I might go out and use my Living Social deal for sushi.
My therapist has an attitude of do what you can when you can and try to not be down about the things you didn't or couldn't do. I think I'm always so focused on the things I don't have or can't do or experience that I'm just so bitter and angry all the time. I need to try to be more.... it's o.k. about things. Again, I didn't go out Saturday night but I did go out and do something (albeit alone) on Monday night. Just doing out and being around people even if I am by myself (i.e. my own company) is still better than nothing and I should give myself credit.
Now... if only I could get some sleep I be a lot more agreeable.