If only these bruises expressed the pain...

[alannah]

I am in a huge fight with my mom...ugh. I don't even know what to say. I just freaked out. I punched my door like 5 million times and I just kept crying. I can't take her. She was like we don't like each other lets leave it at that. Oh ok cool so she doesn't like me...thats straight. Then she comes upstairs and goes you better not be cutting in there. That was probably the worst thing she could have said to me seeing I have been trying so hard to stop and that it just makes the urge worse. She is such a bitch...I really hate her right now. I had to pierce my ear to forget about it so now I have 6 in each ear. I am just so sick of her telling me to go to my dads or be this way or that way. Its so bogus!!! I give up...I seriously feel so shitty right now. I hate this journal because I can't really write what I think because gay people talk shit so thats cool...fuck you! Anyways, I have to go.

Love always,
Alana Leah