So
Sometimes I wonder if I alienated most of you back at my home. I usually update my xanga b/c the college foes read it and I never update this b/c it seems like nobody is ever on. Sometimes I wonder if I am the reason why some of you aren't really in my life anymore. I wonder if it was my own selfishness and my own ego that go in the way. I'd like to blame everybody, but never blame myself for such a thing. I never thought I would ever grow up, but look at me know I already have!