To infinity and beyond....
I've decided I don't like annoymous posting... I want people to be able to say things to me, and not hide behind an annoymous name... Anyone who has experience locating where an IP originates let me know. The past few monthes have been nothing short of hell, and heaven at the same time. Life had been demanding to say the least.
I made a mistake. Im fully aware and prepared to face the consequences of that mistake. My mistake was that I fell in love with the person I thought Rob was... and that was him, wholly and completely.
Over the past few weeks I've discovered something. He still is that person. He is every bit the person that he used to be. But I forgot that there is more to each of us than the person we were. The thing is, over the two years we've been together, we have both changed and he, just like myself, showed there was more to him. A cynical, bitter person who is angry at the world. It applys to both of us. I harbor the feeling that we both feel a great injustice was done to us, each in turn, growing up. Broken families, moving too much, and never having money. Among a million other things. So of course Im bitter. However, I am choosing to make something of myself so that if, on the rare chance, I have kids they live a better life.
My mistake was thinking that he was all peaches and cream and there was nothing more. My mistake was not looking at the whole picture.
I know everyone cares about me. And people care about him. But I need everyone to know that we care about eachother as well. And what we have, be it a friendship (like it started out) or more, is not worth throwing away because of each of ours bad decisions.
So here is where we stand, for those of you interested.
While we continue to refer to eachother as Husband and Wife.. we are, effectively, seperated. We both are going to take some time to find what we want out of life.
Im looking into Massage School, as that is what I've decided I would like to do. Im also looking into taking Aikido, and having my thyroid tested for hypothyroidism. I got a my space account (haha). I'm going to be sewing more frequently, and expanding my cooking knowledge. The house will be put together in the next few monthes, as it has been complete chaos. Organization will prevail.
He is concentrating on work and finding who he thinks he should be, and getting there. If he needs help, he'll ask.
I appriciate everyone's concerns, and hope that you will respect our decision. You don't have to like it, but if you actually care about me, you will remain close friends with each of us and if we ask for your help, be there for us.
I need my friends.
So does he.
In other news, my World of Warcraft character is currently 59 1/2 out of 60 levels. This makes me soo very happy.
Rob's hit 41 last night and Im so proud of him.
For those of you who like to play, and want to play on the same server as me-
Lightning's Blade
Alliance characters - Aaelowynn, Tierney and Ciarawynn.
I'm on one of those when I'm on at all. Which has been frequently, but not addictively.
Thank you, that is all.
Peace and love to you all.
<3 Princess Deenyow
I made a mistake. Im fully aware and prepared to face the consequences of that mistake. My mistake was that I fell in love with the person I thought Rob was... and that was him, wholly and completely.
Over the past few weeks I've discovered something. He still is that person. He is every bit the person that he used to be. But I forgot that there is more to each of us than the person we were. The thing is, over the two years we've been together, we have both changed and he, just like myself, showed there was more to him. A cynical, bitter person who is angry at the world. It applys to both of us. I harbor the feeling that we both feel a great injustice was done to us, each in turn, growing up. Broken families, moving too much, and never having money. Among a million other things. So of course Im bitter. However, I am choosing to make something of myself so that if, on the rare chance, I have kids they live a better life.
My mistake was thinking that he was all peaches and cream and there was nothing more. My mistake was not looking at the whole picture.
I know everyone cares about me. And people care about him. But I need everyone to know that we care about eachother as well. And what we have, be it a friendship (like it started out) or more, is not worth throwing away because of each of ours bad decisions.
So here is where we stand, for those of you interested.
While we continue to refer to eachother as Husband and Wife.. we are, effectively, seperated. We both are going to take some time to find what we want out of life.
Im looking into Massage School, as that is what I've decided I would like to do. Im also looking into taking Aikido, and having my thyroid tested for hypothyroidism. I got a my space account (haha). I'm going to be sewing more frequently, and expanding my cooking knowledge. The house will be put together in the next few monthes, as it has been complete chaos. Organization will prevail.
He is concentrating on work and finding who he thinks he should be, and getting there. If he needs help, he'll ask.
I appriciate everyone's concerns, and hope that you will respect our decision. You don't have to like it, but if you actually care about me, you will remain close friends with each of us and if we ask for your help, be there for us.
I need my friends.
So does he.
In other news, my World of Warcraft character is currently 59 1/2 out of 60 levels. This makes me soo very happy.
Rob's hit 41 last night and Im so proud of him.
For those of you who like to play, and want to play on the same server as me-
Lightning's Blade
Alliance characters - Aaelowynn, Tierney and Ciarawynn.
I'm on one of those when I'm on at all. Which has been frequently, but not addictively.
Thank you, that is all.
Peace and love to you all.
<3 Princess Deenyow