ugh

Jul 14, 2009 21:31

Sometimes I wonder if it's worth being alive.
I failed to turn my life around.
I have no future.
I have no general purpose.
I have no friends.
I doubt vincent's purpose for our relationship.
I'm always on the outside... I'll never stop learning this!!! Even with the kids my own age at the hospital; I'm an outsider. Too weird. I don't laugh at the old people with them. I actually put effort into work, jump when there is a project called into the office...
I respect the older workers as if they were my own grandparents.
It's the right thing to do but I feel like it sets me apart.
With the rest of my peers I'm an outsider because I don't socialize as much. Understandably that makes things more awkward. And then I have no friends.
It's too late to kill myself now. My parents put down the deposit for the apartment.
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