Feb 07, 2004 12:28
what a fricken morning. not cool what so ever I stayed up till 4:30 about talking to someone and then evey called me at 8 so I talked to her for a while then went back to bed and got up at 10:45 which is really early considering how late I went to bed and I was eating my breakfast. well I found out that thursday dad had to go to the Emergency Room b/c he did too much and he got really sick like throwing up and stuff well noone ever bothered to tell me. and so that morning I said something to stop working cause he was overdoing it again and he like went off on me and basicly blamed it on me he said maybe if he had a daughter that would help he wouldn't have to do so much if I didn't always had my hand out. He said all this after I was already crying like to make it worse. then he left so I went out to the barn to help out but there was nothing I could even do and I couldn't get a hold of him. but it makes me soo upset he tried to hurt me. I don't get why he does that. like I don't care or something he is soo mean sometimes. I didn't even know what happened. ughh it makes me cry again just thinking about it. I just can't fathom why he doesn't love us enough to take care of himself so he will be around later for us. I'm sorry if it so much to ask that your dad stick around to be there for you and support you andwatch you grow up.