I can't help but to ask why????
So in the end everyone changes, things change, and life just isn't the same. There isn't too many days where I sit down and just feel sorry for myself but that is what i am doing right now. My bestest freind in the enire world, the first person that I actaully had an intmate guy relationship with is moving. Its sad for me but I know that the person must do what needs to be done. My sisters are moving out also. Everyone that I love and cherish is like moving away from me. I don't know why but I feel so sad. Why couldn't I be blessed by having a brother like Nehe. Why couldn't I be blessed with having a dad like Ken. How come I coudln't be born into a chrsitan home with Holly, Katie and Mama. I know the anwers to these questions but right now I don't want to know the answer.
I am so tried of my home, my life and my family. I know that this is wrong for me to think but it is true. God has given me so many blessings but why must I look on the bad. How come when I become friends with Ben that people say hes no good. Hes a great person and hes aswome to be around. I just don't understand how people can take what they have for granted. I don't understand at all. I wish anyday to be in the McFarland's family, or to actaully go home to the my S.S. teachers house. I would do anything to have parents like the Browns. Why must I be here stuck with peple who truly don't even know me. They say I am a hard person to but for, my mom says that. I told her its because she doesn't get invloved in my life and therfore doesn't know the type of things I like or even the type of person I am. I must go now, when I return, to the normal HAPPY person, is yet to be seen.
This is the season of my life Caitlin.
I am so tried of my home, my life and my family. I know that this is wrong for me to think but it is true. God has given me so many blessings but why must I look on the bad. How come when I become friends with Ben that people say hes no good. Hes a great person and hes aswome to be around. I just don't understand how people can take what they have for granted. I don't understand at all. I wish anyday to be in the McFarland's family, or to actaully go home to the my S.S. teachers house. I would do anything to have parents like the Browns. Why must I be here stuck with peple who truly don't even know me. They say I am a hard person to but for, my mom says that. I told her its because she doesn't get invloved in my life and therfore doesn't know the type of things I like or even the type of person I am. I must go now, when I return, to the normal HAPPY person, is yet to be seen.
This is the season of my life Caitlin.