Choices, Choices, Choices
Right now I am listeing to a song by the Bookers, (ind. baptist group). I miss them so much, each and every one of them touched my life in some sort of way. The song I am listeing to right now is title "One More Soul". It is really touching me because it is the song that I got saved too, so I always get excited and fired up for the Lord. Today I am really quit and my mom is like, David Why are you being so quit? I can't tell her whats going on in my life. She doesn't understand anything about me because she is not a christain. I want to grow up and become a Youth Minster but, people say they don't see be being a Youth Director because I don't have the enery it takes. I am thinking about being a pastor of a church. Then I start to think, can I really be a pasotr of a church. Wow! Desicons that I have to make now, or just think about..... College is almost out of the question now becuase I don't have enough of money and I am too stupid about loans and scholarships and everything like that.
Family is really bothering me. I hate the fact that they cuss all the time and that my brother drinks and that my dad and mom starts to kiss like babies right when I am trying to talk to them. I am like, Hello, get a room. They say its their house and that it is their room. I can't wait till I move out. I know that I shouldn't be thinking like that but I am. Don't get me wrong I love them very very very very much, but it's just I can't take it anymore. I hate it here. You know what it is like spending the entire day by yourself. Yea, some of you will prolly say, hey that is great. It's not. I am tired of being alone. I am tired of having to hide all my feelings becuase like the one song says, "the world won't understand me". I don't even understand who I am, so how can I expect everyone us to understand me. I want to say, Good Bye E-Board, but again I feel trapped. (will somone get me out of here). I try and go places but people are either: out of town, busy, can't get a ride or come over to my house, or vice versa, or there not answering the phone or texting me back. Maybe I try and hang out with other people too much. I try and not to be annyoing by asking people to hang out, I just want to get to know people better.
So I lost another freind today I think. Her name is Amittaia and she has a crazy boyfreind and she is crazy because she will not stand up for herself. I love her, not like a girlfreind love, but as a sister in chirst love and I try and help her out but I can't. I played a silly joke on her and she got all ticked off and everything and I was like sorry, won't do it again, what else do you want me to say. You know what I mean? She called her bf, Rickey, freaking out and he is all like, man chill with my gurl or I will get you butt beat. I am like please, I dare you to try. Whatever! I HATE HATE HATE HATE drama. Choices, Choices, Choices. Until Then God Bless. David
Family is really bothering me. I hate the fact that they cuss all the time and that my brother drinks and that my dad and mom starts to kiss like babies right when I am trying to talk to them. I am like, Hello, get a room. They say its their house and that it is their room. I can't wait till I move out. I know that I shouldn't be thinking like that but I am. Don't get me wrong I love them very very very very much, but it's just I can't take it anymore. I hate it here. You know what it is like spending the entire day by yourself. Yea, some of you will prolly say, hey that is great. It's not. I am tired of being alone. I am tired of having to hide all my feelings becuase like the one song says, "the world won't understand me". I don't even understand who I am, so how can I expect everyone us to understand me. I want to say, Good Bye E-Board, but again I feel trapped. (will somone get me out of here). I try and go places but people are either: out of town, busy, can't get a ride or come over to my house, or vice versa, or there not answering the phone or texting me back. Maybe I try and hang out with other people too much. I try and not to be annyoing by asking people to hang out, I just want to get to know people better.
So I lost another freind today I think. Her name is Amittaia and she has a crazy boyfreind and she is crazy because she will not stand up for herself. I love her, not like a girlfreind love, but as a sister in chirst love and I try and help her out but I can't. I played a silly joke on her and she got all ticked off and everything and I was like sorry, won't do it again, what else do you want me to say. You know what I mean? She called her bf, Rickey, freaking out and he is all like, man chill with my gurl or I will get you butt beat. I am like please, I dare you to try. Whatever! I HATE HATE HATE HATE drama. Choices, Choices, Choices. Until Then God Bless. David