Was it playful and flirty or degrading and dirty? I know you like it both ways.
"So what did he say?
To make you so goddamn defiant
So fucking triumphant?!"
Everything unexpected. Nothing but what felt right.
So today I bounced and rocked myself to shake off anxieties. I argued loudly with my mother while we laughed intermittently. I called Lindsey 19 times in a row until she answered the phone. I watched a John Cusack movie.
And now I'm just awake. So awake I feel lit on fire.
I'm eerily ready to change my life and schedule without a weeks notice. I am going to trust my gut and shaking hands. My heart pounds. I will trust myself - and that is a bigger fucking deal than trusting someone else. I'm not sure how to really share that with someone and have it make sense. But I'm also not sure I'd want to just yet.
Nobody reads this anymore anyways.
Just get ready Ash. Hold Tight. Enjoy the story.
Forget the timeline.
I'm a bucket of emotion. But that's my favorite part.
To make you so goddamn defiant
So fucking triumphant?!"
Everything unexpected. Nothing but what felt right.
So today I bounced and rocked myself to shake off anxieties. I argued loudly with my mother while we laughed intermittently. I called Lindsey 19 times in a row until she answered the phone. I watched a John Cusack movie.
And now I'm just awake. So awake I feel lit on fire.
I'm eerily ready to change my life and schedule without a weeks notice. I am going to trust my gut and shaking hands. My heart pounds. I will trust myself - and that is a bigger fucking deal than trusting someone else. I'm not sure how to really share that with someone and have it make sense. But I'm also not sure I'd want to just yet.
Nobody reads this anymore anyways.
Just get ready Ash. Hold Tight. Enjoy the story.
Forget the timeline.
I'm a bucket of emotion. But that's my favorite part.