Sometimes, life is harder on me than what people think
Well, I have written in a while..But alot has happened..I've been in and out of college.Due to having to take care of my dad.But anyways, as most of you know already he had a bad brain bleed about 2 years ago..Ever since hes came out of the hospital, its been me & my mom taking care of him...I'm 20 years old, and I dont have an ordinary life at all..Like most 20 year olds go out on the weekends,Im at home,taking care of daddy..And I'm just soo aggrivated b/c he treats me like a little kid and he never gives me a break..Not even one day!! His oldest daughters hardley ever help take care of him!!!! Its me and my mom..And my moms back in college and working on the weekends.So she cant help much.Me and my daddy are constantly arguing b/c he never leaves me alone and hes always soo damn nosy..Always in my life. And everything just aggrivates me that nobody helps much..Its all up to me to keep the house clean,make sure the clothes are washed, and make sure daddy has stuff to eat and drinks.I'm 20 years old, I shouldnt be having to do this.I should have my life..I just need a break from him.And one of my good friends knows what its like to have to take care of her daddy..Sometimes,I just wish he would let me live my own life....And othertimes,I ready to get out of here, but I dont want to leave my mom with daddy b/c her life is hard enough as it is..And Im really close to her..But I want to move out soo bad, then I worry if my daddy will be taken care of...It really worries me..But then,I wouldnt be soo stressed all the time.And it would just be me and patrick.But I dont wanna leave my mama..Shes been there through thick and thin..And shes always been on my side through everything..So idk what to do...But thats all for now...