terrible dream
I had a terrible dream last night... For some reason Crissy. Ariel and I had to move into a hotel... all we had were the clothes we were wearing, Ariel's playpen to sleep in and only one stuffed toy for her... I can't remember how long we were there, but Ariel would cry and cry and cry all night long which made Crissy and I really upset... Crissy would softly cry until she fell asleep and I would try to calm Ariel all night... The dream only focused on night time, nothing about what happened in the day... No idea how or why we ended up living in this crappy smelly dimly lit hotel... Just lots of sadness... :( I woke up and couldn't get back to sleep for a couple hours.
I did manage to get back to sleep, but I don't feel very rested. Maybe the dream is because I'm home sick and I know how much Crissy and Ariel are missing me while I'm in school. I don't know.
I want to go work up north to make lots of money once school is done, but now I'm not so sure that's a good idea. If I miss them this much and they miss me this much after only my third week how are we ever going to cope with my being gone all summer? :( However, it would be nice to make the kind of money I would make up north. We'd get everything under control and start to make some headway for once... Would that make it worth it. Ariel wouldn't remember my being gone so much when she's older so now would be the best time to do it if at all. But at the same time I don't want to be away from Crissy so much right after our wedding. Aren't newly weds supposed to be together lots for the first part of the marriage. But it would be nice to have a good financial foundation to build our new marriage on.
I don't know what to do...
I did manage to get back to sleep, but I don't feel very rested. Maybe the dream is because I'm home sick and I know how much Crissy and Ariel are missing me while I'm in school. I don't know.
I want to go work up north to make lots of money once school is done, but now I'm not so sure that's a good idea. If I miss them this much and they miss me this much after only my third week how are we ever going to cope with my being gone all summer? :( However, it would be nice to make the kind of money I would make up north. We'd get everything under control and start to make some headway for once... Would that make it worth it. Ariel wouldn't remember my being gone so much when she's older so now would be the best time to do it if at all. But at the same time I don't want to be away from Crissy so much right after our wedding. Aren't newly weds supposed to be together lots for the first part of the marriage. But it would be nice to have a good financial foundation to build our new marriage on.
I don't know what to do...