Bronto?
hmm... how to describe my weekend... Dreams the shattered or one bad apple can spoil the bunch...
So everyone basicly knows how i had/have a huge crush on Donnie. well on wednesday right after school we went to Doms to hang out. Then we went to Pats and Donnie started to put his arms around me and hold my hand. I'm one of those girls that'll almost kiss anyone but cuddleing is strictly like only when i have feelings or something speacial. So.. for some reason i didn't stop him. Then he went to work. SO he brought me home and Sarah picked me up and was like lets go to Dave&Busters. All I could talk about was how much i like Donnie and tonight we had to kiss. SO after that we all went back to Donnys and were watching tv. We started cuddling again and then WE KISSED! I was so happy.
Then on Turky Day I had to go up to my Uncle Vincents but all day he called me and was texting me. Poor Beany got bit by Scooter! And Steph and I bonded a lot!! It was good. Poor mom got burned by Grandpa, he told her that Joe was a bum and blah blah blah... but for once she doesnt care what anyone says or thinks!!!! so good for her!
So when Friday came Donnie called and asked what time i was coming home. I told him around 3 and as soon as i got home he came and picked me up. We went back to Doms and jus chilled and were cuddling and kissing and it was so nice. Then when he went to work he gave me a hug and kiss good bye and i thought that was cute. When he came back he sat right next to me and gave me a big kiss hello! I couldn't help but to smile. Then when it was time for Sarah and I to go to Sarahs he walked me to Doms door and gave me like 5 gazillion kiss goodbyes and it was just too cute! For once I thought I might have a boyfriend material type of guy.
Saterday came and what did i do... called Donnie but he wasn't sure if he could hang out so i told him to just call. He never did and i had to go to dads anyways for a second thanks giving. Dads was fun for once! In so long i havent had any fun there and all of a sudden it was a blast! Apparently im allowed to have a beer... Steph Rick and I have lots of fun making animals with our hands! It was just amazing and I thought to myself.."can this weekend get any better?" boy do i regret saying that. When i came home there was a text from Donnie saying "Listen im sorry you have to hear this but i want to say it before anything else started im not ready for a relationship im sorry its not you its me" and my heart dropped. How could this happen. then i asked him what he wanted and he said to be friends.
Sunday i was sick and slept for most of the day. Then Sarah and Marla came over and sarah said that Donnie meant it as a heads up not a break up and my question is HOW CAN THAT STATEMENT BE TAKEN AS ANYTHING BUT A BREAK UP! but sarah being sarah decided not to explain anything esle. then where did we go... to doms. oh yeah Sarah and Dom are dating. but Donnie was there and it wasn't awkword but it was and idk. I just cant figure him out.
Then yesterday i went to an eighties party and Mona is like begging me to go to Lake Champion... I'm so unsure because i havent seen Sam in so~> long and her performance is this weekend but.. I'm so confused about everything. and today after school i jus started balling. i feel like im constantly being treated like crap and there's no body who can treat me right. all my niceness pays to NOTHING! im tired of being walked on and broken and theres really no one who can mend me except myself... i pray to the Lord to help me because for once in my life i honestly have no clue what to do and niether does anyone around me....
Random fact of the day:HANDS ON TABLE!
So everyone basicly knows how i had/have a huge crush on Donnie. well on wednesday right after school we went to Doms to hang out. Then we went to Pats and Donnie started to put his arms around me and hold my hand. I'm one of those girls that'll almost kiss anyone but cuddleing is strictly like only when i have feelings or something speacial. So.. for some reason i didn't stop him. Then he went to work. SO he brought me home and Sarah picked me up and was like lets go to Dave&Busters. All I could talk about was how much i like Donnie and tonight we had to kiss. SO after that we all went back to Donnys and were watching tv. We started cuddling again and then WE KISSED! I was so happy.
Then on Turky Day I had to go up to my Uncle Vincents but all day he called me and was texting me. Poor Beany got bit by Scooter! And Steph and I bonded a lot!! It was good. Poor mom got burned by Grandpa, he told her that Joe was a bum and blah blah blah... but for once she doesnt care what anyone says or thinks!!!! so good for her!
So when Friday came Donnie called and asked what time i was coming home. I told him around 3 and as soon as i got home he came and picked me up. We went back to Doms and jus chilled and were cuddling and kissing and it was so nice. Then when he went to work he gave me a hug and kiss good bye and i thought that was cute. When he came back he sat right next to me and gave me a big kiss hello! I couldn't help but to smile. Then when it was time for Sarah and I to go to Sarahs he walked me to Doms door and gave me like 5 gazillion kiss goodbyes and it was just too cute! For once I thought I might have a boyfriend material type of guy.
Saterday came and what did i do... called Donnie but he wasn't sure if he could hang out so i told him to just call. He never did and i had to go to dads anyways for a second thanks giving. Dads was fun for once! In so long i havent had any fun there and all of a sudden it was a blast! Apparently im allowed to have a beer... Steph Rick and I have lots of fun making animals with our hands! It was just amazing and I thought to myself.."can this weekend get any better?" boy do i regret saying that. When i came home there was a text from Donnie saying "Listen im sorry you have to hear this but i want to say it before anything else started im not ready for a relationship im sorry its not you its me" and my heart dropped. How could this happen. then i asked him what he wanted and he said to be friends.
Sunday i was sick and slept for most of the day. Then Sarah and Marla came over and sarah said that Donnie meant it as a heads up not a break up and my question is HOW CAN THAT STATEMENT BE TAKEN AS ANYTHING BUT A BREAK UP! but sarah being sarah decided not to explain anything esle. then where did we go... to doms. oh yeah Sarah and Dom are dating. but Donnie was there and it wasn't awkword but it was and idk. I just cant figure him out.
Then yesterday i went to an eighties party and Mona is like begging me to go to Lake Champion... I'm so unsure because i havent seen Sam in so~> long and her performance is this weekend but.. I'm so confused about everything. and today after school i jus started balling. i feel like im constantly being treated like crap and there's no body who can treat me right. all my niceness pays to NOTHING! im tired of being walked on and broken and theres really no one who can mend me except myself... i pray to the Lord to help me because for once in my life i honestly have no clue what to do and niether does anyone around me....
Random fact of the day:HANDS ON TABLE!