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yea this journal is getting a little repetative but thats what happens in my life. i met an amazing person about 2 months ago. smart, funny, stunningly beautiful. i probably let myself get too close too fast, but this person brought out a side of me that i thought that i'd never find again. hitting things off the way we did and how great we got along was amazing. i thought we had a good thing, we'd joke about being stuck with each other, and shit like that, i mean i want a relationship with her, but she is still wrapped around past shit. i just dont know how a person can go from saying that they cant wait to see me in july and that they are excited to take a trip to san diego with me and possibly crash for a while, to telling me that they think they are still in love with their ex. how come i cant avoid these fucking situations? is it too much to want someone who cares about me!? i loved feeling that someone was happy to talk to me and hear from me, now im back to being alone and miserable. i really want to just hold my kids at least i know thats one thing no one can take from me.