. L i v e I n L O V E .<3
beauty is only skin deep.
today was gorgeous, last night & yesterday too
it feels so good to just get away from everything and be alone/with good people
i love staying over there -its safe and no one judges me or criticizes me. i have time to think.
ive thought a lot about school and the future.
getting a 4.8 and dedicating everything in my life to education, doesnt mean anything to me
i cant do that and be happy with everything
i understand that my family believes that straight A's and a perfect SAT score are the only ways to ever be successful
but i talked to cheryl today and shes right -people worry too much about what theyre not good at. they focus on how theyre not good at math, and try to improve at it, but they should just find what theyre good at and love -and spend their time doing that & being happy & successful with that.
its true. im stressing about photography, but really, turning in pictures or projects that i didnt LIKE didnt work for me.
and if i fail out of highschool and have to go to a JC. and if my family hates me for bein such an idiot. {which i deserve}
it wont matter. cause ill be FINE.
i need to stop stressing and relax. because if its going to happen its going to happen, and i cant stop it
theres no point in wasting each day worrying about what ill do when it happens
it doesnt matter what you do, as long as youre dedicated to it & love it.
i love design. i love art and creativity and drawing outside the lines. i love beauty and people. i could never be a photographer, i used to think i wanted that, but now i know i cant deal with deadlines and imperfection
so in a way, im glad i didnt do as well as i could have this year, because being successful in that class would have meant sacrificing the ability to understand what i know now.
yes i hate that i didnt get an A in an "easy" class.
and that all of you were watching every move i made. criticizing me. some in particular.
but i learned.
did you learn?
learning really hurts sometimes. but im proud of everything ive learned. sometimes the hardest things that happen to us shape us into what were meant to be,
ive learned a lot in my life
ive learned about people and ive learned about myself.
and to me, learning about those things and dealing with life as it comes, are more important than lying my way through life and getting good grades.
im figuring out what i want. and its hard, but i am.
maybe ill be grounded for the whole summer..
but at least ill have time to get a good tan and spend some time with my family.
today was gorgeous, last night & yesterday too
it feels so good to just get away from everything and be alone/with good people
i love staying over there -its safe and no one judges me or criticizes me. i have time to think.
ive thought a lot about school and the future.
getting a 4.8 and dedicating everything in my life to education, doesnt mean anything to me
i cant do that and be happy with everything
i understand that my family believes that straight A's and a perfect SAT score are the only ways to ever be successful
but i talked to cheryl today and shes right -people worry too much about what theyre not good at. they focus on how theyre not good at math, and try to improve at it, but they should just find what theyre good at and love -and spend their time doing that & being happy & successful with that.
its true. im stressing about photography, but really, turning in pictures or projects that i didnt LIKE didnt work for me.
and if i fail out of highschool and have to go to a JC. and if my family hates me for bein such an idiot. {which i deserve}
it wont matter. cause ill be FINE.
i need to stop stressing and relax. because if its going to happen its going to happen, and i cant stop it
theres no point in wasting each day worrying about what ill do when it happens
it doesnt matter what you do, as long as youre dedicated to it & love it.
i love design. i love art and creativity and drawing outside the lines. i love beauty and people. i could never be a photographer, i used to think i wanted that, but now i know i cant deal with deadlines and imperfection
so in a way, im glad i didnt do as well as i could have this year, because being successful in that class would have meant sacrificing the ability to understand what i know now.
yes i hate that i didnt get an A in an "easy" class.
and that all of you were watching every move i made. criticizing me. some in particular.
but i learned.
did you learn?
learning really hurts sometimes. but im proud of everything ive learned. sometimes the hardest things that happen to us shape us into what were meant to be,
ive learned a lot in my life
ive learned about people and ive learned about myself.
and to me, learning about those things and dealing with life as it comes, are more important than lying my way through life and getting good grades.
im figuring out what i want. and its hard, but i am.
maybe ill be grounded for the whole summer..
but at least ill have time to get a good tan and spend some time with my family.