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I am thinking of a lot of things. The evening jog on the bike bath along the beach in Kapa‘a, the lights coming off the low-slung balconies. At the center of civilization for hundreds of miles around, though having a population of only 10,000.
Also thinking about life in the city, the promise of connection, but I am recently not interested in the comedy nights or dancing at the bar. I make myself go then after 30 minutes I am ready to leave.
Tonight I decided to skip ahead and stay home and read. I am reading "Hawaii" by James Michener. The first fifty pages were interesting, talking about the war between Bora Bora and Tahiti a thousand years ago, which drove some of the Bora Bora residents to sail across the ocean and start civilization in a new land, Hawai‘i. The next three hundred pages deal with the missionaries' arrival in the 1800s and how they converted Hawai‘i to Christianity. I find this part difficult to read because I disagree with it. Religion stopping incest and whoring around. bringing medicine and gender equality. western culture brought a mix of good and bad developments to Hawai‘i. The most unfortunate things it brought is shame, stigma, racism. Intangible things. I find religion boring at best and don't see why I should spend my precious free time reading about it. That said, I think I am almost done with that part so I can move on to some more interesting part of the story.
I have been giving more thought to moving to the suburbs. After all my self-righteous proclamations about the superiority of living in the city to the mind-numbing suburbs, the noise, over-stimulus, and expense of living in the city is starting to get to me. City life in LA was one thing, but in SF is a different thing. I ask myself where would I be happy living? A quiet place, is my first answer. I don't know about the dating situation. Surely living in the city is better for meeting a mate. Then again, most guys just want to hook up or are tourists or both. It is a tough question to answer. I can't move to the suburbs so easily. Where I end up is the Sunset, Glen Park, the Richmond. Still in the city but not as crazy.