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Today has been an awful day.
Actually, today wasn't a bad day at all, but I am sitting here thinking bad thoughts and turning the whole day into a write offable fail.
Today has been a better day outside of my head than in it.
We went away for a week to Nelson and went fishing and ticky bug saw the beach for the first time and caught pippies and got wet and it was fantastic. He also got sand down his nappy and had a nice warm bath afterwards which made it all better.
We caught fish and put them in a big bucket and gave him a sieve so he could catch fish out of it. He giggled so much it was a gurgle. Then we let the fish go and he almost went in after them. He's a quick little sucker.
Also got to catch up with one of my favourite friends who gives fantastic hugs and met her partner for the first time who is a really nice guy, so that was awesome and all in all the best week I've had for a long time. Oh, and I got to sleep in! Bug's Nana took the early morning shift. I have bought her a thank you book *grins* She well deserves it.
Alas, my fantastic week was supremely unproductive in terms of working on my Quest.
And possibly the reason for my being depressed today is that the three days I've been back haven't been any more productive. There've been a lot of REASONS, but that doesn't fix it. I wouldn't undo any of the things I've done, but I wish I had more mental strength to focus and stick to making the changes I want to.
So fingers crossed tomorrow will bug will be feeling better and ...
Hunh. I wrote "go to the University and meet up with the History Professor" and then remembered that tomorrow is Wednesday when my sister has the day off work and we usually catch up for a coffee. I was thinking, 'hey, I could do coffee in the morning and then go shopping and buy some shoes for the wedding and play soccer in the park in the afternoon' and realized MY GOD THIS IS WHY THINGS DON'T GET BETTER.
I guess you have to give up some good things that are like a comfy old pair of shoes in order to move your life forwards.
So, tomorrow. Meet Professor.
Hopefully.
Cross your fingers for my willpower, y'all.
Actually, today wasn't a bad day at all, but I am sitting here thinking bad thoughts and turning the whole day into a write offable fail.
Today has been a better day outside of my head than in it.
We went away for a week to Nelson and went fishing and ticky bug saw the beach for the first time and caught pippies and got wet and it was fantastic. He also got sand down his nappy and had a nice warm bath afterwards which made it all better.
We caught fish and put them in a big bucket and gave him a sieve so he could catch fish out of it. He giggled so much it was a gurgle. Then we let the fish go and he almost went in after them. He's a quick little sucker.
Also got to catch up with one of my favourite friends who gives fantastic hugs and met her partner for the first time who is a really nice guy, so that was awesome and all in all the best week I've had for a long time. Oh, and I got to sleep in! Bug's Nana took the early morning shift. I have bought her a thank you book *grins* She well deserves it.
Alas, my fantastic week was supremely unproductive in terms of working on my Quest.
And possibly the reason for my being depressed today is that the three days I've been back haven't been any more productive. There've been a lot of REASONS, but that doesn't fix it. I wouldn't undo any of the things I've done, but I wish I had more mental strength to focus and stick to making the changes I want to.
So fingers crossed tomorrow will bug will be feeling better and ...
Hunh. I wrote "go to the University and meet up with the History Professor" and then remembered that tomorrow is Wednesday when my sister has the day off work and we usually catch up for a coffee. I was thinking, 'hey, I could do coffee in the morning and then go shopping and buy some shoes for the wedding and play soccer in the park in the afternoon' and realized MY GOD THIS IS WHY THINGS DON'T GET BETTER.
I guess you have to give up some good things that are like a comfy old pair of shoes in order to move your life forwards.
So, tomorrow. Meet Professor.
Hopefully.
Cross your fingers for my willpower, y'all.