:'(
So I have decided that the summer is just about the most depressing thing ever...
I can't believe that we will all probably not see each other again all at once for more than three months. I miss everyone already and I feel soooooo bored. Of course all of this may have to do with the fact that I am sitting alone in an empty apartment eating a bowl of cheerios all by myself as a mid-night snack thinking about the fact that if we all still lived in the dorms still at least someone would be up to keep me company. I am not sure why this has hit me so hard but now I just can't seem to stop crying and the stupid cat won't even stop running around and cuddle with me. I just really really need a hug and I really wish that I was going home for a while now, because realistically I will probably see my family once maybe twice all summer. You wouldn't think that 2 hours would make it so hard to be able to see them but right now it seems like a huge barrier. I am glad that I will at least get to spend a lot of time with Jess this summer and I am excited about going to six flags on Thursday.
I hate the fact that these breaks always seem to come at the worst time. I really wish that we had all been living in the dorms, though preferably exam free, for the next few weeks because things were going great and we were all having fun. I tend to be really pessimistic about breaks because things are never the same when you come back, people have moved on, they have new friends, and you have to re-get to know them all over again. I am really afraid that I will not see you guys nearly as much as we talk about me being over and I think it would be worse if I wasn't living with Jess this summer. I just really hate change, it scares me a lot.
So basically what I am getting at here is:
1. I hate change
2. I miss all of you and you have only been gone like 30 hours or less
3. I hate being a girl and having hormones that make me so emotional and weepy
4. I miss my family
5. I can't really think of five but oh well such is life
The worst part is that I really want to talk to someone, anyone and yet no one is around or awake and it makes me even sadder that I don't know my friends well enough to feel ok with calling them this late. This is not how I wanted to spend my first night of the summer in Madison.
I can't believe that we will all probably not see each other again all at once for more than three months. I miss everyone already and I feel soooooo bored. Of course all of this may have to do with the fact that I am sitting alone in an empty apartment eating a bowl of cheerios all by myself as a mid-night snack thinking about the fact that if we all still lived in the dorms still at least someone would be up to keep me company. I am not sure why this has hit me so hard but now I just can't seem to stop crying and the stupid cat won't even stop running around and cuddle with me. I just really really need a hug and I really wish that I was going home for a while now, because realistically I will probably see my family once maybe twice all summer. You wouldn't think that 2 hours would make it so hard to be able to see them but right now it seems like a huge barrier. I am glad that I will at least get to spend a lot of time with Jess this summer and I am excited about going to six flags on Thursday.
I hate the fact that these breaks always seem to come at the worst time. I really wish that we had all been living in the dorms, though preferably exam free, for the next few weeks because things were going great and we were all having fun. I tend to be really pessimistic about breaks because things are never the same when you come back, people have moved on, they have new friends, and you have to re-get to know them all over again. I am really afraid that I will not see you guys nearly as much as we talk about me being over and I think it would be worse if I wasn't living with Jess this summer. I just really hate change, it scares me a lot.
So basically what I am getting at here is:
1. I hate change
2. I miss all of you and you have only been gone like 30 hours or less
3. I hate being a girl and having hormones that make me so emotional and weepy
4. I miss my family
5. I can't really think of five but oh well such is life
The worst part is that I really want to talk to someone, anyone and yet no one is around or awake and it makes me even sadder that I don't know my friends well enough to feel ok with calling them this late. This is not how I wanted to spend my first night of the summer in Madison.