[one-shot] Mellow Contemplations
Title: Mellow Contemplations
Author: in_monochrome
Rating: PG
Pairing: Kaoru x Die
Words: 640
Disclaimer: Pure fiction.
Summary: Late summer and fragile feelings.
Notes: Originally written for fonulyn and the drabble meme. But this turned out to be a little longer in the end and I thought I should share, since I write way too less in English.
Mellow Contemplations
The nearby chirring of the cicadas gently mixes with the whispering wind that is playing with strands of his brownish hair. Sunrays of the sinking sun, disappearing at the apricot-colored horizon, make it gleam slightly. These last shafts of sunlight tickle my sunburned skin, just like his soft fingertips are tickling the lower part of my abdomen; barely touching it.
Surrounded by high reed, we're locked in a world that is almost as far away from our daily-lives that it seems surreal to be right here beside him at this abandoned and calm place. While soft waves are quietly swashing against the wooden feet of the pier, I'm searching more warmth in his arms, slide closer. So close that his steady breathing brushes my neck, sends pleasant shivers all the way down my spine.
It's hard to decide whether I want to close my eyes, suck in his gentle touches with all the cells of my body even more or keep them open to look at his glittering eyes that devour me in his very special way. Only he knows how to take away all the stress and sorrows off my shoulders. But right now all I can think about is this misery that keeps haunting us like a saturnine shadow. Physically I'm nowhere else but here, but my mind keeps revolving around how to move on with us and our relationship, that actually is no relationship. Where did it all begin and how did we get here? Incidents I can't recall. We've always been nothing more than friends and then... These new feelings that came to be discovered - what shall we do with them now?
Mellow contemplations in my head, buzzing bumblebees in my stomach, chirring cicadas in my heart - making music, longing for his affection. I'm unable to express that I want to keep him embraced forever. This moment is just like a fragile bubble.
Insects sparkle like diamonds in the air. The sinking sun makes the water look like hundreds of tiny fireflies are dancing on the sweeping surface. And I allow my leg that's laying close to the edge to dangle, softly dip my toes into the cold liquid, as if it could take the pressure off my chest that awfully hurts when he showers me with his tenderness. His lips caress my neck with a certain yearning that reminds me of how much I crave to let him know what has been growing inside of my heart during the past few months. But we're here - stuck in a bitter-sweet scenery. Where hope is an illusion and being together just a blink of an eye.
Unsaid promises. Unspoken declarations of love. Once you said it you can never go back. Am I even sure? Is he even sure?
The twittering bird at the milky sky are flying over our heads as if they're ridiculing us.
I'm shaking off all of my childish fears that keep turning me into an empty shell in which he should be the soul. Realizing that I am indeed more than sure since weeks, but only hid myself deep down in repressions, I'm plucking up my courage now, grabbing his tattooed hand, intertwine our fingers and open my dry mouth just a tiny bit. But words that just don't want to come out, get taken out of my mouth and unexpectedly my whole world gets turned upside down.
Suddenly an affectionate smile has appeared on his face, illuminating the darkness I was tapping in for so long. An affectionate smile that is curling around his lips that form sugary whispered words as if he could see just right through me with this almond-shaped eyes, right into the most clandestine chamber of my being and read the thoughts I was thinking ever since we first kissed. "I love you..."
~~~END~~~
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Author: in_monochrome
Rating: PG
Pairing: Kaoru x Die
Words: 640
Disclaimer: Pure fiction.
Summary: Late summer and fragile feelings.
Notes: Originally written for fonulyn and the drabble meme. But this turned out to be a little longer in the end and I thought I should share, since I write way too less in English.
Mellow Contemplations
The nearby chirring of the cicadas gently mixes with the whispering wind that is playing with strands of his brownish hair. Sunrays of the sinking sun, disappearing at the apricot-colored horizon, make it gleam slightly. These last shafts of sunlight tickle my sunburned skin, just like his soft fingertips are tickling the lower part of my abdomen; barely touching it.
Surrounded by high reed, we're locked in a world that is almost as far away from our daily-lives that it seems surreal to be right here beside him at this abandoned and calm place. While soft waves are quietly swashing against the wooden feet of the pier, I'm searching more warmth in his arms, slide closer. So close that his steady breathing brushes my neck, sends pleasant shivers all the way down my spine.
It's hard to decide whether I want to close my eyes, suck in his gentle touches with all the cells of my body even more or keep them open to look at his glittering eyes that devour me in his very special way. Only he knows how to take away all the stress and sorrows off my shoulders. But right now all I can think about is this misery that keeps haunting us like a saturnine shadow. Physically I'm nowhere else but here, but my mind keeps revolving around how to move on with us and our relationship, that actually is no relationship. Where did it all begin and how did we get here? Incidents I can't recall. We've always been nothing more than friends and then... These new feelings that came to be discovered - what shall we do with them now?
Mellow contemplations in my head, buzzing bumblebees in my stomach, chirring cicadas in my heart - making music, longing for his affection. I'm unable to express that I want to keep him embraced forever. This moment is just like a fragile bubble.
Insects sparkle like diamonds in the air. The sinking sun makes the water look like hundreds of tiny fireflies are dancing on the sweeping surface. And I allow my leg that's laying close to the edge to dangle, softly dip my toes into the cold liquid, as if it could take the pressure off my chest that awfully hurts when he showers me with his tenderness. His lips caress my neck with a certain yearning that reminds me of how much I crave to let him know what has been growing inside of my heart during the past few months. But we're here - stuck in a bitter-sweet scenery. Where hope is an illusion and being together just a blink of an eye.
Unsaid promises. Unspoken declarations of love. Once you said it you can never go back. Am I even sure? Is he even sure?
The twittering bird at the milky sky are flying over our heads as if they're ridiculing us.
I'm shaking off all of my childish fears that keep turning me into an empty shell in which he should be the soul. Realizing that I am indeed more than sure since weeks, but only hid myself deep down in repressions, I'm plucking up my courage now, grabbing his tattooed hand, intertwine our fingers and open my dry mouth just a tiny bit. But words that just don't want to come out, get taken out of my mouth and unexpectedly my whole world gets turned upside down.
Suddenly an affectionate smile has appeared on his face, illuminating the darkness I was tapping in for so long. An affectionate smile that is curling around his lips that form sugary whispered words as if he could see just right through me with this almond-shaped eyes, right into the most clandestine chamber of my being and read the thoughts I was thinking ever since we first kissed. "I love you..."
~~~END~~~
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