First entry! Appointments, My Day, and an Introduction about Akuen
So, I thought I should make an online journal since I rarely have the energy to actually physically write in a journal. So here we go! No holding back! Yosh! -otaku-
I had a decent day at school. I feel asleep in first hour. My teacher has the kind of voice that makes you want to doze off. She's quite boring. It was no big deal since I already know how to factor by grouping since I'm taking Advanced Math this semester as well. My first hour teacher, Whitman, teaches Algebra II, but she does it at such a slow pace that I get bored very easily.
I checked out during lunch to go to my counselor and doctor's appointments, but not before shoving a whole snackcake in my mouth. :D I was really hungry since I was too lazy to eat this morning. My laziness overcomes my hunger most days. XD Maybe that's why I'm kinda thin? Lol. "Hm...-Looks in cabinet- I'm hungry, but I'm too lazy to chew. Oh well. Sorry tummy." -Me
My counselor's appointment went ok. She was going over what we're going to be doing for my treatment plan. "Learning coping skills" and such. Stuff I already learned at the psychiatric hospital (Brentwood). They, the doctor and my counselor, treat me as if I'm still as defective as I was. Overdosing on pills and then staying at Brentwood for two weeks was a huge smack in the face to get my life straight. I know I still need to continue with counseling, but I don't think I need to work on my coping skills as much, seeing as how I should be putting them to use and not just spouting off what they are, yanno? I need a person that I can blindly tell anything to, besides some very secret things that would probably cause a lot of trouble. Like how I just know that I'm going to die by suicide. I've dreamed about it many times. It's a premonition, so to speak. Like you just KNOW something weird is going on, well I just KNOW that it will happen. I don't see anything wrong with that. It will not be because I am depressed, though. It will be when I think I have completely fulfilled my duties as a human on this earth.
My doctor's appointment went well. I'm quite tired of saying "Yes sir" and "No sir". He refilled my prescription for Prozac, but didn't say anything about the Buspar I'm on. I'm not sure about that. I'll have to talk to him about it.
Anyway, I'll probably write in this each day. :] I'm not really concerned with making friends and getting comments. This is here to pour out my thoughts, but you're very welcome to say what you like to me.
I suppose I'll introduce myself a little! :] My real name is Destiny. My sex is female, but I don't identify with either gender mentally. I am pansexual. I am an atheist. I am a free thinker. I am 17 and a junior in high school. I plan to go to an art institute. I am who I am and will never let anyone belittle me. I am a person, just as you are.
I have French homework! D:
<3 Akuen
I had a decent day at school. I feel asleep in first hour. My teacher has the kind of voice that makes you want to doze off. She's quite boring. It was no big deal since I already know how to factor by grouping since I'm taking Advanced Math this semester as well. My first hour teacher, Whitman, teaches Algebra II, but she does it at such a slow pace that I get bored very easily.
I checked out during lunch to go to my counselor and doctor's appointments, but not before shoving a whole snackcake in my mouth. :D I was really hungry since I was too lazy to eat this morning. My laziness overcomes my hunger most days. XD Maybe that's why I'm kinda thin? Lol. "Hm...-Looks in cabinet- I'm hungry, but I'm too lazy to chew. Oh well. Sorry tummy." -Me
My counselor's appointment went ok. She was going over what we're going to be doing for my treatment plan. "Learning coping skills" and such. Stuff I already learned at the psychiatric hospital (Brentwood). They, the doctor and my counselor, treat me as if I'm still as defective as I was. Overdosing on pills and then staying at Brentwood for two weeks was a huge smack in the face to get my life straight. I know I still need to continue with counseling, but I don't think I need to work on my coping skills as much, seeing as how I should be putting them to use and not just spouting off what they are, yanno? I need a person that I can blindly tell anything to, besides some very secret things that would probably cause a lot of trouble. Like how I just know that I'm going to die by suicide. I've dreamed about it many times. It's a premonition, so to speak. Like you just KNOW something weird is going on, well I just KNOW that it will happen. I don't see anything wrong with that. It will not be because I am depressed, though. It will be when I think I have completely fulfilled my duties as a human on this earth.
My doctor's appointment went well. I'm quite tired of saying "Yes sir" and "No sir". He refilled my prescription for Prozac, but didn't say anything about the Buspar I'm on. I'm not sure about that. I'll have to talk to him about it.
Anyway, I'll probably write in this each day. :] I'm not really concerned with making friends and getting comments. This is here to pour out my thoughts, but you're very welcome to say what you like to me.
I suppose I'll introduce myself a little! :] My real name is Destiny. My sex is female, but I don't identify with either gender mentally. I am pansexual. I am an atheist. I am a free thinker. I am 17 and a junior in high school. I plan to go to an art institute. I am who I am and will never let anyone belittle me. I am a person, just as you are.
I have French homework! D:
<3 Akuen