I'm Sorry
I feel asleep in first hour today. Go me. I actually studied after I took a nap when I got home. How surprising.
I feel like shit now. I was talking to Cameron about when I developed feelings for him and he told me that I said that I never really thought we were good friends, in the past when we were younger. So that's the reason why he stopped chasing me back then and moved to Texas for a year. He considered us best friends and that hurt him a lot. I feel like such an asshole. I didn't mean to say something that stupid. I've always considered him a good friend. I hate how stupid I was when I was younger. I had no thoughts about what my words meant to others. Gah. I wish I could go back in time and punch my past self in the face a few times. What an idiot. So now I'm upset and crying like a bitch. :/ It's natural for me to be upset about this. He keeps telling me it was in the past and to not be upset, but how can I not? I know it's in the past and I will get over it in due time, but now I have every right to be upset. I'd feel even MORE horrible if I didn't feel anything about this. I promise that I will do anything and everything I can to make him happy. I will think about what I say more now.
I'm sorry, baby. I'm a fucking asshole and I have to beat myself up some for this.
I feel like shit now. I was talking to Cameron about when I developed feelings for him and he told me that I said that I never really thought we were good friends, in the past when we were younger. So that's the reason why he stopped chasing me back then and moved to Texas for a year. He considered us best friends and that hurt him a lot. I feel like such an asshole. I didn't mean to say something that stupid. I've always considered him a good friend. I hate how stupid I was when I was younger. I had no thoughts about what my words meant to others. Gah. I wish I could go back in time and punch my past self in the face a few times. What an idiot. So now I'm upset and crying like a bitch. :/ It's natural for me to be upset about this. He keeps telling me it was in the past and to not be upset, but how can I not? I know it's in the past and I will get over it in due time, but now I have every right to be upset. I'd feel even MORE horrible if I didn't feel anything about this. I promise that I will do anything and everything I can to make him happy. I will think about what I say more now.
I'm sorry, baby. I'm a fucking asshole and I have to beat myself up some for this.