Jun 18, 2005 03:36
These thoughts embossed on my mind keep me
paralyzed, petrified, and propitious.
Some days it gets so hard, and it feels
like the world is out to get me.
I often try to remain optimistic, but times
get strange, and feelings just erupt.
It often seems like this place gets harder,
like when the person you are fond of,
isn't fond of you.
When that complication arises & implications
just defy yuh. I smile so fast, while the truth
just keeps barrying my past.
Sucks....so bad to use compliments as propaganda
for your self esteem. Makes things harder when
ur seekin one, and it can't be found.
There's always so much racin throug my mind.
So many smiles, so many beautiful people.
I always say "live it to the fullest" but am I
really.
I mean because if you don't know yourself, than how
can you be yourself...and If you don't know yourself,
than how can u be want you want to be.