nother one.
right now...things arent so great. and no one except one person understands..its amazing. to find out who will actually keep to there word. these little promises in the end mean nothing. at all. they were all just lies. just remember...this place isnt a place to stand up for urself or what u believe in. because theres always someone who will put u down. but for some reason i wont go down with them. "let themselves destroy themselves with their drama" yes. yes thats what ill do. forget everything. let it all go. not friendship. but this stupid crap that goes along with friendship. stupid people. they dont understand anything. only in there own little word of hope which can only lead to there downfall. damn. ive never been this hurt since alex. but it didnt come from a love. no, it came from friends. those ones...u know...who r supposed to stick up for u. ya that. thats it. now, u should know by now that i dont like to dwell. i dont cry alot. and when i do. its meaningfull. because ive been hurt. its amazing how people seem to have become stuck in this little world. this world of theres that means any little thing can bring them down. yes, i am mad. yes, i am sad. yes, i am hurt. because..i stood up for myself and for what i believe in only to be brought down. but not forever. shit. i trust people way to easily. and i shouldnt. not anymore. no. this is the end of it. and yes, YOU may think its a load of crap. well i have one thing to say to u. f**** u. but no. u know what? i wont cry over this. i wasnt brought up like that. i was brought up to stand up. and not give up. and i wont. ever. i will continue to bitch. and fight. but silently. and peacefully. so there ya go. i hope ive pissed u off. because i meant every word ive written. im not afraid to speak my true feelings. im not like that. i dont say things to shut ppl up but then say my TRUE feelings behind peoples backs. thats stupid. and pointless. thank u for taking the time to read my livejournal. yes i am mad. i will prolly get over it. i dont hold grudges THAT long. but i wont forget.
ashley