short unhappy post- just warning you. sorry.
ick. im depressed. im tired of being treated like an idiot at my job, relationships have got me down, and i feel like my body is a big lump of grotesque. right. i dont know how to convey my thoughts into words, nor do i have the patience to sit and write all of this down, but....
-im tired of being a plaything for boys
-im tired of not expressing my creativity
-im turned off of everything, unable to feel
-im too tired to exersize, and do the things that i enjoy, also, do not know anyone who shares these interest that doesnt want to fuck me
-i want a boyfriend that doesnt cheat on me, or a girlfriend that isnt insane
-i want to be alone
-i am a contradiction of myself, i know, quit whining.
the friends i thought i was close to dont care that i even exist anymore
-im in love with someone who needs to process too much, and isnt interested in me.
sigh. ok. pity party over.
-im tired of being a plaything for boys
-im tired of not expressing my creativity
-im turned off of everything, unable to feel
-im too tired to exersize, and do the things that i enjoy, also, do not know anyone who shares these interest that doesnt want to fuck me
-i want a boyfriend that doesnt cheat on me, or a girlfriend that isnt insane
-i want to be alone
-i am a contradiction of myself, i know, quit whining.
the friends i thought i was close to dont care that i even exist anymore
-im in love with someone who needs to process too much, and isnt interested in me.
sigh. ok. pity party over.