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well... i just woke up its 7:12 and i want more sleep but my mom says i am not aloud to fall back asleep. crazy family.i'm feeling.. lonely, but what else is new? today wasn't a very good day at all. honestly, sometimes i think that i am like incredibly over him and then other times i notice myself drooling. uh.. seriously drooling.. but thats not saying much b/c i do drool a lot. i think i caught rabies from my hampster.... uh.. boys boys boys... don't like em.. okay so maybe a little. well so i have been writing in my journal thing. its turned out to be this like hate journal where i say all of the horrible things that i am too much of a wimp to put online. but i guess there is a lot of stuff that i feel like i can't say online becuase i have had it for like 2 days and i've written... a lot. its kind of scary actually. and when i like read back over it sometimes i am like.. holy crap, did i seriously just write that? and then i realize what a horrible person i am. haha, well i don't care. but the other day i was thinking about all the people that have problems with me and all of the people that are cool to me to my face and then have problems with me behind my back... yea, you might think that i am an annoying loser, but i have to live with me.. think i haven't noticed..? like when youre annoyed with someone (me) you can just get up and walk away... but i am practically like locked up in a room with myself all the time. i drive myself crazy. sometimes i wonder if i was not me.. would i be my friend.. hm i honestly dont think so. i'd probably be jealous of all of the friends that i have.. and my hot body. wow. just kidding. i'm a sad loser. but for some reason right now i feel good. i'm crazy.