no way
there is absolutely no way this is happening...no way. god, i dunno what i'm gonna do. i can't believe this...i've finally found her and i'm not gonna let go. i dont care what i have to do...i mean that. this is crazy...for once in my life, i'm really and truly scared...not like, horror movie scared, but...scared. worried, my stomach is in knots, i cant breathe, and im freaking out...this is absolutely the worst thing that could've happened...i feel like throwing up and i hate it...but mostly i hate them, for being them, for raising such an amazing girl and then...ruining her for being herself...its messed up, seriously, and i wish i could just take her and run away with her and never let them see her again so they cant hurt her...i cant breathe...i think...im goin nuts...i cant breathe...this is so f*ed up right now...but i'm gonna make it all ok, somehow, some way, this isnt gonna last, we will be able to talk...and figure this out...i'll figure somethin out...