my babies
it's been a long time since i wrote in my Lj!! heres what I'll do: I'll use a journal entry from my 23 falls journal to assimilate myself into the LJ scheme of things, hopefully i'll get used to writing in here and keeping up the long winding story of my life. then, i'll add some friends and make this baby friends-only.
Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn that was good pasta.
Barilla is the shit, my sisters, my bruthas. Its what italians buy and praise the lord you can get it over here.
This is how my day went.
Period 1 - maths. Maths is actually fast becoming my preferred subject for both study and attendance cause in class theres zero bullshit, my teachers aren't lazy and flicking my mind over equation after equation is kind of relaxing, takes my mind off things.
Period 2 and 3 was double drama and even that wasn't so bad, despite having been loaded up with a whole heap of shakespeare stuff i gotta get done tonight for assessment. We're doing drama festival, so im cool with that, plus im happy cause a few of the guys in my drama class think im hot.
Recess was boring as fuck, wish I'd brought my discman.
Period four my day just...dropped. In the downwards direction. i was one of the first 5 or so in class, and the first to sit at my row, until peta and sally came in and sat next to me, but to one side of me (so i still had an empty space next to me).
Troy D'Ambrosio walks in (and he's been nothing but a dickhead to me for the past year but I never let it get a rise from me) and sees that sally and peta who he likes, are to one side, and he has to stay with them (cos kids are insecure like that) but he goes, "I'm not sitting next to her."
I respond: "Good. It's taken." And knock my bag into the seat.
So he slams his shit on the desk and goes, "arrogant bitch! move down -, as if id sit next to you, you freak."
In those words exactly. Completely unprovoked.
Peta goes, "shuffle down, liz."
Aren't my friends cool how they stick up for me like that? But then again; I shouldn't need it.
So, straight faced, I shuffle down.
I think he called me a freak a couple more times, tells me hedl hurl the apple in his hand at my head, before he chomps into it (by then I'd stopped taking him seriously; because I simply couldn't - although hes known to treat people like shit, you just don't say that to a girl and mean it, and there are better things to be thrown), i caught his eye once and he told me to stop looking at him.
Sally and Peta had their backs to me, talking to him, for the rest of the period, and I just kind of sat there at the end of my row, studying sallys book in front of me cause i didn't know all the parts of the heart and had a health half yearly sprung on me for next period.
Well, the next period I certainly wasnt up for that, everyone started going off to weird classrooms that i didnt know about, i couldnt find anyone except a big bunch of guys, i ran upstairs to mrs greenwood like a weak little girl...I really can not bail on my classes every time something like that happens...
anyway i shed a tear and a half. (the half didnt go down my face, it doesnt count as a whole tear.)
It wasnt like i was crying - thats the type of shit i pray for, and only do when things are really dire - but it was enough to make brendan giles stick to me cause he thought i was crying and brendan giles is just this really sleazy guy who i hate and is impossible to shake off.
I know i wasnt crying because I didnt do that whimpery thing, didnt go red in the face, didnt feel better in the end.
well, i sat outside for half an hour and came back eventually, sat through lunch, didnt talk about it.
I went to computer studies and will wasnt there. he was the entire thread of a reason i came to school.
Then I had english, we were watching lord of the flies.
I didnt hear anything of this but apparently my mark for the first english unit of the year is dismal - alyson told me this - because things didnt work out with me and the group i was working with.
Also, its only minor i spose, but theres all this public speaking shit going on behind my back where my teachers recruiting everyone but me to go into public speaking and debate and then saying she doesnt know anything about it or for me to shoosh and watch the movie - its absolutely transparent since I've been told by other students whats going on but shes the one with the power, and god its just about the only possible chance at achievement ive got at this shithole of a school, and most importantly, im GOOD, so why doesnt she let me do it?
i went home and made the mistake of telling my parents about Troy treating me like shit and my sister, i dont know why i did and i wish i hadnt cause in all the love and support they were letting me know i had, they were actually blocking me from just getting over it.
Laura thinks that he does it because i let him.
thanks lauls.
Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn that was good pasta.
Barilla is the shit, my sisters, my bruthas. Its what italians buy and praise the lord you can get it over here.
This is how my day went.
Period 1 - maths. Maths is actually fast becoming my preferred subject for both study and attendance cause in class theres zero bullshit, my teachers aren't lazy and flicking my mind over equation after equation is kind of relaxing, takes my mind off things.
Period 2 and 3 was double drama and even that wasn't so bad, despite having been loaded up with a whole heap of shakespeare stuff i gotta get done tonight for assessment. We're doing drama festival, so im cool with that, plus im happy cause a few of the guys in my drama class think im hot.
Recess was boring as fuck, wish I'd brought my discman.
Period four my day just...dropped. In the downwards direction. i was one of the first 5 or so in class, and the first to sit at my row, until peta and sally came in and sat next to me, but to one side of me (so i still had an empty space next to me).
Troy D'Ambrosio walks in (and he's been nothing but a dickhead to me for the past year but I never let it get a rise from me) and sees that sally and peta who he likes, are to one side, and he has to stay with them (cos kids are insecure like that) but he goes, "I'm not sitting next to her."
I respond: "Good. It's taken." And knock my bag into the seat.
So he slams his shit on the desk and goes, "arrogant bitch! move down -, as if id sit next to you, you freak."
In those words exactly. Completely unprovoked.
Peta goes, "shuffle down, liz."
Aren't my friends cool how they stick up for me like that? But then again; I shouldn't need it.
So, straight faced, I shuffle down.
I think he called me a freak a couple more times, tells me hedl hurl the apple in his hand at my head, before he chomps into it (by then I'd stopped taking him seriously; because I simply couldn't - although hes known to treat people like shit, you just don't say that to a girl and mean it, and there are better things to be thrown), i caught his eye once and he told me to stop looking at him.
Sally and Peta had their backs to me, talking to him, for the rest of the period, and I just kind of sat there at the end of my row, studying sallys book in front of me cause i didn't know all the parts of the heart and had a health half yearly sprung on me for next period.
Well, the next period I certainly wasnt up for that, everyone started going off to weird classrooms that i didnt know about, i couldnt find anyone except a big bunch of guys, i ran upstairs to mrs greenwood like a weak little girl...I really can not bail on my classes every time something like that happens...
anyway i shed a tear and a half. (the half didnt go down my face, it doesnt count as a whole tear.)
It wasnt like i was crying - thats the type of shit i pray for, and only do when things are really dire - but it was enough to make brendan giles stick to me cause he thought i was crying and brendan giles is just this really sleazy guy who i hate and is impossible to shake off.
I know i wasnt crying because I didnt do that whimpery thing, didnt go red in the face, didnt feel better in the end.
well, i sat outside for half an hour and came back eventually, sat through lunch, didnt talk about it.
I went to computer studies and will wasnt there. he was the entire thread of a reason i came to school.
Then I had english, we were watching lord of the flies.
I didnt hear anything of this but apparently my mark for the first english unit of the year is dismal - alyson told me this - because things didnt work out with me and the group i was working with.
Also, its only minor i spose, but theres all this public speaking shit going on behind my back where my teachers recruiting everyone but me to go into public speaking and debate and then saying she doesnt know anything about it or for me to shoosh and watch the movie - its absolutely transparent since I've been told by other students whats going on but shes the one with the power, and god its just about the only possible chance at achievement ive got at this shithole of a school, and most importantly, im GOOD, so why doesnt she let me do it?
i went home and made the mistake of telling my parents about Troy treating me like shit and my sister, i dont know why i did and i wish i hadnt cause in all the love and support they were letting me know i had, they were actually blocking me from just getting over it.
Laura thinks that he does it because i let him.
thanks lauls.