I Learned How To Love
Title: I Learned How To Love
Author(s): akotanga
Pairing(s): Taecyeon/Junsu
Rating: PG-13
Summary: ..
Notes: WARNING: Unbeta-ed, Wrong grammars everywhere, I'm sorry OTL Please bear with it. This will be a 2 chapter story.
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Sunday morning.
For Junsu, each day of the week became boring and ordinary for him. Since that incident happened, his life turned upside down. An incident that shattered all of his dreams and hopes, for his family and for himself.
All of his life, Junsu wanted to be a singer. He dreamed of singing his own composed songs in front of many people. He studied in a music school and trained himself hard to be able to write songs. He usually gets inspiration from his own experience. Whenever he’s sad or happy, he tries to match his mood to the song he’s writing to make sure the outcome will be nice and good.
His professors even praises him for his undeniable talent. They sometimes ask him to write songs for the school’s yearly jingle. That’s why when he reached senior year, he automatically became a varsity student and became famous amongst others.
And that was also the time when a horrible incident met his peaceful life. An experience he’ll never forget..
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“What?!” Junsu nearly yelled at his mother. He can’t believe what his umma said.
“Junsu, my son, I’m really sorry but-“
“But what umma? Haven’t I told you that I’m not ready yet? I’m still studying for heaven’s sake!” Junsu felt he would explode anytime soon. How can his mother arrange him to marry a rich businessman? Not to mention the boy was younger than him.
“I really can’t say no to Mr. Ok, Junsu. He’s our family friend.” Mrs. Kim hold his hands. “Please listen to me Junsu. If you marry Mr. Ok’s son, I’m sure he’ll give you a bright future. You want to be a singer right? They also own a recording company, that means he can make you a singer right away.” Her eyes were glistening as she coax his son sweet promises.
Junsu’s mouth fell open. Yes, he wanted to be a singer. A popular singer. But he wanted to make it step by step, starting from bottom until he goes to the top. And also-
“But I don’t love him umma. I’m not ready yet. I don't even know him.” Junsu’s eyes started to well, looking straight in the eyes of his mother. He’s not even ready yet to have a boyfriend, and then suddenly he’ll marry a guy he didn’t know? *facepalm*
“You can learn to love someone dear. And I know you’ll love him, he’s a good guy.” She pulled his son into a hug, caressing his back. “Please do this for umma, neh? I just want all the best for you.”
If anything, Junsu can leave his singing ambition just for his mother. So whether he like it or not, he’ll marry the guy his umma arranged with him.. “N-neh umma..”
And that’s it. After their conversation that night, the Ok family immediately flock into their house. Junsu was shocked because her mother woke him up early in the morning (which is very unusual because his class are in the afternoon), dragged him on the living room and two men immediately snaked tape measures into his waist and shoulders. A women suddenly walked into him asking him what motif he want. “M-motif?!” Junsu froze. He didn’t expected this. There will be a wedding ceremony? He thought that this will be just a civil marriage. Oh fuck...
The wedding day ended peacefully. Junsu tried his best to smile, in front of his in laws and his classmates. It was also his first time to see his future husband. He was tall, young, shy, good looking man. Taecyeon tried to talk to him; approached him kindly in his room, but he refused with all his might.
“You may now kiss the bride..” And that’s it. Junsu nearly fainted when the tall boy look at him nervously. He was so sure that he want to kiss him, but he’s afraid that he might get angry. The priest, and the people at the back were all looking at them, waiting for them to kiss. Junsu couldn’t wait anymore, he just want to finish this quickly. He pinch the taller boy’s right arm, signalling him to make the first move. “A-are you sure?” He asked.
“Just do it quickly!” Junsu tried to stay calm, wanting to punch the younger. The taller boy suddenly moved, kissing him on the lips softly. His eyes widened in shock, tasting his first kiss. For Junsu it was not impressive, more like a forced kiss. This was not the kiss he wanted. This was not the first kiss he expected to be. Moments later, he heard deafening applause and whistles everywhere. Junsu broke the kiss, pushing the younger off of him. He looked at Taecyeon with utter loathing, which made the taller boy to bow down.
Night had already fallen and Junsu lazily threw himself on the fluffy bed. His mother forced him to move in the Ok mansion which he finally agreed after several coaxing from his umma. He found out that the two of then will only occupy the mansion because Taecyeon’s father has a villa in States and he decided to give the mansion to them as a gift. For Junsu, it was great; because he don’t need to pretend being sweet to Taecyeon. He never love the boy in the first place.
Junsu shifted and hugged the pillow tight. He closed his eyes, feeling the scent of aroma clouding the room. His eyes suddenly flew open when he felt something behind him. He felt lips kissing his neck, someone touching his butt. Junsu’s breath hitched when his butt was squeezed, sending shivers through his skin. With all his might, he turned around and pushed Taecyeon mustering all his strength he’s been hiding all the time. The younger boy nearly fell on the floor, clutching tightly on the bedsheet for support. “W-what’s the problem?” The boy asked in astonishment.
Junsu took time to look at the boy in front him. He’s wearing nothing except for a blue boxers. He must admit, he got a one hell of a body. Six packs, bulging muscles on his arms and chest, and a tanned complexion. He saw the confused face of Taecyeon which make his face turned red in anger.
“What do you think are you doing?!” He yelled. His eyes burning, looking straight at the taller boy.
“It’s our honeymoon..” The boy scratched the back of his head.
“No! There will be no honeymoon, or anything. You’re just my husband just for the sake of the law, and nothing else.” Junsu tried to catch his breath, feeling furious at the moment.
A minute of silence, when suddenly the taller boy spoke, “Okay. I’m sorry.”
He slowly rise, arranging the bedsheet. He turned around, his head slouched. “Goodnight.”
He gently closed the door, leaving a crying Junsu..
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Junsu sipped his coffee as he reminisced everything 1 month ago. Until now the relationship between him and Taecyeon is still the same. The younger boy would leave early in the morning for work while he’s still sleeping, and he go home late while he’s already asleep. And oh, they were sleeping in a different room. Junsu didn’t even bother to talk to him, nor greet him everytime he would come unusually early. He didn’t even bother eating together with the boy, nor watch tv with him. This was their routine in the first month of their relationship.
“Let’s have an annulment. I can’t take this anymore.” Taecyeon nearly dropped the suitcase he was holding. He turned around, seeing the usual smug face of Junsu.
“W-what?” The taller boy asked as he tried to digest what the older boy said.
“Look, we don’t love each other, and it sucks living like this. I want to leave this house now. I want you to bring Atty. Horvejkul so he can settle our annulment papers as soon as possible.” Junsu said, finality in his voice was present.
Taecyeon was dumbfounded. He can’t believe of what he heard. “Juns..Okay. I’ll call Atty. Horvejkul. I’m leaving now.” He turned around, his shoulders slumped.
Junsu felt pity towards the boy for the first time. Taecyeon never maltreated him. He never forced him in anything, whether it be sex or just a simple kiss. The taller boy has been patient dealing with him everytime they would meet. He always gave him a sweet and genuine smile and there he was, showing an I-don’t-care face in return. Junsu never did his responsibility as a huswife, he never cooked for his husband, never prepare his suits and necktie in the morning. He never bothered asking the boy what’s the problem, nor hug him. NEVER.
Junsu sipped his coffee once again, as the scenes happened last week flashed in his mind. He looked at the younger boy playing with his Koi in the pond near his where he’s sitting. Tomorrow is the day. Atty. Horvejkul will come tomorrow to settle their annulment papers. In his heart, Junsu felt guilt, but this is what he like right?
He shook his head and turned his attention to his phone. He was listening to the songs he composed and recorded way back when he’s still studying, when suddenly he heard a bitchy shriek somewhere in the garden.
“Yeonnie!!”
A blonde boy happily ran towards the tall boy and immediately cling his hands onto the neck of his husband. Junsu’s eyes narrowed, as he saw Wooyoung kissed Taecyeon on the cheek. The tall boy look at the blonde boy, face with no expression at all.
Wooyoung was Taecyeon’s bitchy ex-boyfriend. He dumped the tall boy when he found an American mofo, but when the bastard leaved him, he didn’t take second thoughts to go back to the tall boy, which he nearly died in shock when he found out the he’s already married.
And that was the time when Wooyoung annoys the shit out of him. He would go to the mansion everyday, feeling at home. Junsu didn’t mind, as he could care less about him.
He saw Taecyeon leaved the small boy, which the latter followed the tall boy inside the house. He, too, stood up, and walked towards the mansion.
Taecyeon hastily walked towards his study room, but unfortunately Wooyoung was fast as a fox. He immediately closed the door and locked it, hugging the tall boy from the back.
“Yeonnie, I miss you so much.” He turned the tall boy around and without warning he kissed him on the lips. Taecyeon was shocked, pushing the small boy.
“What the fuck is your problem Wooyoung? Haven’t I told you that we’re already done?” Taecyeon gripped the small boy’s left arm, eyes burning in anger.
Wooyoung held Taecyeon’s necktie, trailing his fingers on his lean body covered in white polo shirt. “Don’t you love me anymore Yeonnie oppa?” He sexily purred, sending shivers to the tall boy.
Taecyeon inhaled cautiously, feeling the small boy’s knees massaging his crotch. It has been forever since he had his last release. Junsu and him never had sex that’s why a simple caressing from Wooyoung made his cock harder than rock.
The small boy bit his lips, smiling slyly as he continue to massage the taller boy’s crotch. His hands slowly travelled south, unbuckling Taecyeon’s belt. The tall boy let out a throaty moan, which made Wooyoung more confident to touch the tall boy. Just as when he pulled his cock from his boxers, Taecyeon pushed him violently. He landed on the floor, confusion written all over his face.
“This is wrong.” Taecyeon zipped his pants, fixing his raging cock doing the 12 O’clock tuck. Due to its abnormal length, its bulbous head and half of its body was poorly hidden by the belt and pants. He arranged his polo shirt, covering his member.
Wooyoung stood up, moving towards the tall boy. “Why? You and Junsu will be divorced in a month right?” He whispered, arranging the collar of his polo shirt. “That means we can be together agai-”
“That means I’ll be alone again. That’s it. We can never be together again Wooyoung. And that’s final.” Taecyeon turned around, leaving the small boy dumbfounded.
Wooyoung threw the papers onto the floor. He was fuming. “I’ll have you again Taec. Mark my word.”
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Junsu sat down on the table, setting his laptop. He opened the folder which contains his newly composed songs. Yes, he was able to write a song in the past few weeks since he got married, and all of them are about loneliness and despair.
He was about to put on his earphones when someone spoke behind him.
“Well well well. Look who’s here.” Wooyoung sat beside Junsu.
“Hi Junsu.” Wooyoung greeted the older boy, his face plastered with his usual bitchy smile.
“Oh hi there Wooyoung. You’re here again. What makes you?” Junsu cooly asked, disregarding the other’s presence.
“Oh well I’m here because of Yeonnie, seems like his wife isn’t taking a good care of him. So I decided to accompany him.” The small boy answered teasingly.
Junsu stopped on his tracks, and once again guilt run through his body. Then again, it was his desicion, so he need to stand on it. “Really? So how’s going on?” He tried his best to look cool, his gazed fixed in front of his laptop.
“Well seems like he’s searching for a new wife. You know, you and Taec will be finally divorced in a month right?” The blonde boy smirked, he loves teasing Junsu. Ever since Taecyeon married Junsu, he kept grudge towards the latter. He wanted to set them apart, and get Taecyeon back to him.
“You don’t deserve Taec, Junsu. He’s only mine."
Junsu’s eyebrow furrowed at what the small boy said. “You seemed to be confident Wooyoung. Well, goodluck then.” He faced the blonde boy, flashing a fake, forced smile. He folded his laptop and stood up, “Have a nice day Wooyoung. And please, feel free to do anything.” Junsu said, stressing the last word; and with that, he left the dining room without looking back.