Ralationships are overrated...
So yesterday was crappy. I slept through my alarm AGAIN and missed Theatre History. Stagecraft was fun, cuz we started drafting, and then afterwards me, Chris, Megan, Crystal, and Evan went to the Ladysmith light up. The thing is, Chris had been acting kinda weird the past few days, and I was beginning to worry that somthing was wrong. But I figured he was stressed or somthing, and if he was still being weird at the light up, I'd ask him what was going on. Well, he was acting really weird. He wouldn't sit by me, he wouldn't hold my hand, nothing. I was torn between anger and worry... but most of all I was a little hurt. We wandered around downtown and I got shunned. Chris didn't even LOOK at me, let alone introduce me to all the people he ran into. And he talked more to Megan than he did to me. Actually, he hardly talked to me at all. Luckily though, Crystal is awesome and she and Evan hung back with me so I wasn't completely shunned. I think she knew I was upset; apparently being an actress doesn't help with hiding feelings.
So anyway, we watched the light up and all, then went to this field to watch the parade and fireworks. They were boring, to say the least, and I was still really upset because of Chris. And he kept saying he felt really sick, so then I started to worry as well. When the fireworks started, I wrapped my arms around him, but like, a few seconds later he shrugged me off and wandered off. We all figured he was going to throw up or somthing, but I was still really worried, and I just wanted to leave. When it was over, I went and found him and he gave me a big hug. I was a little thrown, but it made me feel a little better. Well, briefly. He wanted to go see his mom, but we were all heading back to Megan's car. So he was gunna go and meet up with us. I didn't want him going alone because he wasn't feeling well, so I offered to go with him, but he just said no, so I dropped it.
So when we got back to town, we went upstairs to hang out, and I got hungry so I was going to go downstairs. I told him that I'd make him somthing, because he kept saying he was hungry. So he came downstairs with me. I went to go dump my stuff in my room and he followed me and closed my door. He hugged me again, then sat on my bed. I sat with him and then he was like, "I hate doing this.."
and I got really scared. Nothing good EVER follows that sentance. He started telling me how he thought we jumped into our relationship too fast, and that he doesn't want to hurt me because he still really likes me, but he wants to just be friends. He felt really bad about it all and kept apologising, and I told him it was ok and I was fine, but really, is anyone ever fine after hearing, "Let's just be friends?"
So anyway, I totally wasn't in the mood to cook after that, so I ordered pizza. We went back upstairs to hang out and I KNOW Crystal knew somthing was up. I wasn't even TRYING to hide that I felt like shit. Chris went and hid somewhere, and then Megan drove him home. Crystal, Evan, Lo, and I were watching Finding Nemo, which I was totally not into at the moment. When the pizza came I ate half the box, most of the cheesy bread, and a chocolate bar. Food brings such comfort.
Anyway, Crystal wanted to go to bed so we went downstairs. Nevada had Ageliki over, and they both saw that I was upset, and they started asking me what was wrong. Then I started crying. I told them what happened, and they instantly did the girlfriend thing, telling me that I was gorgeous and could do better... blah blah blah. Then they convinced Lo and I to go out to the gay bar. So we went out and had a few drinks, and Nevada bought me a Tequila shot, (Which is not fun btw, Tequila and I don't mix well) anyway, then Lo and I got tired, and I was getting really drunk and a little sick, so we went home and passed out.
So in short, I got dumped, and then ate/drank away my feelings. So I feel like shit.
So anyway, we watched the light up and all, then went to this field to watch the parade and fireworks. They were boring, to say the least, and I was still really upset because of Chris. And he kept saying he felt really sick, so then I started to worry as well. When the fireworks started, I wrapped my arms around him, but like, a few seconds later he shrugged me off and wandered off. We all figured he was going to throw up or somthing, but I was still really worried, and I just wanted to leave. When it was over, I went and found him and he gave me a big hug. I was a little thrown, but it made me feel a little better. Well, briefly. He wanted to go see his mom, but we were all heading back to Megan's car. So he was gunna go and meet up with us. I didn't want him going alone because he wasn't feeling well, so I offered to go with him, but he just said no, so I dropped it.
So when we got back to town, we went upstairs to hang out, and I got hungry so I was going to go downstairs. I told him that I'd make him somthing, because he kept saying he was hungry. So he came downstairs with me. I went to go dump my stuff in my room and he followed me and closed my door. He hugged me again, then sat on my bed. I sat with him and then he was like, "I hate doing this.."
and I got really scared. Nothing good EVER follows that sentance. He started telling me how he thought we jumped into our relationship too fast, and that he doesn't want to hurt me because he still really likes me, but he wants to just be friends. He felt really bad about it all and kept apologising, and I told him it was ok and I was fine, but really, is anyone ever fine after hearing, "Let's just be friends?"
So anyway, I totally wasn't in the mood to cook after that, so I ordered pizza. We went back upstairs to hang out and I KNOW Crystal knew somthing was up. I wasn't even TRYING to hide that I felt like shit. Chris went and hid somewhere, and then Megan drove him home. Crystal, Evan, Lo, and I were watching Finding Nemo, which I was totally not into at the moment. When the pizza came I ate half the box, most of the cheesy bread, and a chocolate bar. Food brings such comfort.
Anyway, Crystal wanted to go to bed so we went downstairs. Nevada had Ageliki over, and they both saw that I was upset, and they started asking me what was wrong. Then I started crying. I told them what happened, and they instantly did the girlfriend thing, telling me that I was gorgeous and could do better... blah blah blah. Then they convinced Lo and I to go out to the gay bar. So we went out and had a few drinks, and Nevada bought me a Tequila shot, (Which is not fun btw, Tequila and I don't mix well) anyway, then Lo and I got tired, and I was getting really drunk and a little sick, so we went home and passed out.
So in short, I got dumped, and then ate/drank away my feelings. So I feel like shit.