祐や、お誕生日おめでとう♥
祐也、お誕生日おめでとう♥
Happy Birthday to you
I wish you always stay healthy and happy.
I wish you always success in your career also in what you want to do.
I wish you always have strength and energy to fight with all of obstacles, and together with 3 others, bring new NEWS success
This is 3rd time I write this note for you. This year, your birthday is a very special day ne? I'm sure you're really happy with it. Not many ppl can have such a nice birthday like you ne ^^
Recently, I'm killed with a lots of works, and many things happened to me too. Seem my life has to bear with lot of bad things happen in same time T.T I had tried to eat properly, tried to smile and tried to forget everything but I can't.
I'm stress of over-work. I have no way to reduce it and I know my lead also wants to give me less task than now but impossible. And actually my lead has a high expectation of me that I can control everything in team like a real leader, also, done my works so well that no one can complain. I'm not a superman thou T_T. And it's hard to catch up with fandom while I'm too much busy so it's like I don't have any source of happiness to fulfill my energy.
Also, something happened in my family that I didn't expected. Sudden I could not see my future anymore and sudden, my big dream was ruined. I really have no way til now and I'm still sad about that. Sometime, I really don't want to live in what-is-called-home like now. My home just doesn't give me any feeling of a "home".
A bro in my team gonna change company. T_T He's a yasashii person, so kindness, and never talk loudly with other ppl, even when he's stress. He works really well and finishes his tasks really fast >_< Both me and my lead are so happy to have him in our team. Because I can transfer some of my tasks to him. And he's best friend of a bro in my cosplay team before. So he treats me like his younger sister and always helps me a lots to deal with my tasks >_< But he gonna go. And I have to face with the mountain-task again T_T" I will miss him so much thou >_<
And one more important thing. On exactly your birthday, 11/11, is the last working day of a guy here whom I like. He's the second one that I really like in real-life, the one that fit well with my "ideal man" image (except his height ¬_¬). At first, I noticed him bcs of his light-brown-eyes and his hair reminds me of you LOL~ Then, he's a funny and kind person. And then, without my noticing, I start to fall for him T_T. And now he's gonna going abroad to work and study T_T. I really don't want him just go far away like that but I have no way. He has his big dream and he wants to turn it in real with any price. Although I only know him in a short time, but he really impressed me, in many ways. Well, I don't want to talk of him anymore. I guess I should forget about his leaving.
The thing that make me happy now is talking with close friends. Minna, thanks for talking and always listening my problem. <3
And, seeing your smile makes me feel happy too. So please keep smiling and work hard to encourage me LOL~ Truly, I have a thought that, if I can only love you forever, maybe it's good thou. At least, that is a giving-love more than give-take love. No expectation, no relation, no hurt. At least, I only need to care of how I can go to Jap and watch your concerts, how I can buy your stuffs and how I can catch up with everything involve with you. At least, the only thing I need to care is money LOL
Sorry for saying those things in your birthday note. But it's good to speak out like this ^^" I actually want to say many things to you but at this time, I can not think of anything. Maybe I will do it on 13/12 like usual :)
Anyway,
Thank you for always working hard and make your fans happy.
Thank you for deciding keep NEWS
Thank you for existing in my world.
I have never felt regret that I love you <3