**WhaTs THe WorST tHing I CouLd Say..ThinGS aRE BetTEr If I StaY**
so yeah, just another weekend with nothing to do. ill probably just stay home, cause hell, what else is their for me to do. tomorrow is my sisters birthday and its so cool. shes going to be 18. HAPPY EARLY B-DAY VER!!! Im going crazy with this whole situation with Ryan and justin though. i mean, im cool with both of them, but ryan has been talking hella shit lately about veronica, and if pulls anything on her birthday, that will be the end for him. and justins just been mean.thats putting it plane and simple. but..justins going to iraq by the end of summer..its pretty fucked up. but anyways.. tomorrows alys birthday too but i already got her, her gift. i got her an eXtreme thing ticket. awesome huh? i cant wait for eXtreme thing, its going to be so much fun. well shavan is coming in about...6 DAyS!!! woohoo!! i cannot wait. we are gunna have so much fun. and maybe her being here will put me at ease a little bit. because lately ive been killing myself in pain, it sucks. and then i only slept 9 hours through all last week (not counting the weekend) i just havent been able to sleep.and now my dad. well he hasnt been drinking, which is a plus. but hes been going down to La for weeks at a time. and well its fucking gay. hes been staying down their with her, after all the shit thats shes done. damn.. and now Andy...well nothing has changed in the past few months of how i feel for him. I love him so much, and at the same time wish we could just chill like we use to.i just miss that part of my life. but yeah, i gotta go clean now. blah! ill write back .
LaTEr!
LaTEr!