In which I complain about myself
I've noticed recently that I've become a lot more easily discouraged. For example, I've started working on my Raquel costume again for Fanime and Anime Expo, and it's gotten to the point where I'll try to do one thing, but it won't go well so I'll give up for several hours. My mom was so nice and measured out one of the sleeves so it would match the first sleeve that I did, but I basted it on and it didn't look the same at all (not the same level of puffiness... god fuck I hate puffy sleeves), so I just threw it down and gave up on it. I guess the plan is to whine at my mom more about it when she gets home, but whining and giving up isn't going to get the stupid thing done. I wish I had the ability to just face and tackle problems instead of just running away. It's stupid.
I haven't wanted to do anything lately. The realization that I have to go back to school soon has come to me, and while I enjoy school when I'm there, I don't enjoy having to go back after having a couple of weeks of not having any responsibilities. It's about this time that I realize all of the productive things I could have done on break (such as working on this goddamn costume) and try to do them all at once, which just results in me getting stressed out and not wanting to do anything again. When it comes right down to it, I don't know if I really enjoy school. I enjoy learning stuff, but not school. I guess. Or maybe I just don't enjoy having responsibility.
The casing surrounding the screen on my laptop came precariously loose the other day, so I'm sending it in to Apple for repairs. The box should get here today or tomorrow, and they'll send it back to Boston when they're done with it. Hopefully it shouldn't be something that will take too long to fix; it's not that it affects performance or anything, just that the stupid thing is hard to close. However, this also means that I'm going to have to spend my entire plane trip and probably a few days in Boston without a computer. Sigh. Maybe I'll finally sit down and watch all those discs of Super Gals or something.
I don't like writing anymore, and that totally sucks.
I haven't wanted to do anything lately. The realization that I have to go back to school soon has come to me, and while I enjoy school when I'm there, I don't enjoy having to go back after having a couple of weeks of not having any responsibilities. It's about this time that I realize all of the productive things I could have done on break (such as working on this goddamn costume) and try to do them all at once, which just results in me getting stressed out and not wanting to do anything again. When it comes right down to it, I don't know if I really enjoy school. I enjoy learning stuff, but not school. I guess. Or maybe I just don't enjoy having responsibility.
The casing surrounding the screen on my laptop came precariously loose the other day, so I'm sending it in to Apple for repairs. The box should get here today or tomorrow, and they'll send it back to Boston when they're done with it. Hopefully it shouldn't be something that will take too long to fix; it's not that it affects performance or anything, just that the stupid thing is hard to close. However, this also means that I'm going to have to spend my entire plane trip and probably a few days in Boston without a computer. Sigh. Maybe I'll finally sit down and watch all those discs of Super Gals or something.
I don't like writing anymore, and that totally sucks.