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[akiro]

I have no ambition to step out of my house today. I'm such a closet case. Seriously. It's almost pathetic. Okay it is pathetic. I'm getting disatisfied again with life. Well not life just with where I'm headed. I draw for a living but I always feel like I'm not good enough that I just don't have the skills. I have the raw talent, it just never seems polished enough for my liking. I'm a perfectionist but not really... I love my style and I always love how things come out but I never think it's good enough, or that no one will want to make something of it. Maybe I should just get off my very high shetland pony (get it, the really small minature ponies...short, they're short, low to the ground...not high at all) and just throw it out there. But every time I've seemed to throw things out there I get rejected or it's just not good enough. Maybe I should just plaster random pictures on walls with an email address. Haha I'd probably get viruses galore doing that.

I need more art supplies. I know that. I really want copic markers!! I don't care their royally expensive...they got so many great colours~ suckie.

I need driver's training so I can get my liscense >_< I've never been so ready. Well okay I'm scared to death but I just want to be able to go wherever I want whenever I want.

I am so bored right now...