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I haven't updated in about three weeks and a whole lot has changed since then I guess. I want to say that everything is rainbows and butterflies and flowers but it never is. Somehow though as fucked up as everything has been lately its not that bad. I've been thinking about things more seriously. Mostly I've been thinking about the past as opposed to why we don't even like each other or why she hasn't called or whatever.
Funny thing about missing people is sometimes the feeling hits you when you least expect it. I hadn't thought about him in a long time. Hadn't dared to say anything about him. And then on Monday sitting in the grassy knoll with everyone around you were there. I didn't think about you on my birthday or on Christmas but I thought about you on the last day of school. That makes me feel guilty. What's even worse is that I don't know if I should feel guilty.
Funny thing about missing people is sometimes the feeling hits you when you least expect it. I hadn't thought about him in a long time. Hadn't dared to say anything about him. And then on Monday sitting in the grassy knoll with everyone around you were there. I didn't think about you on my birthday or on Christmas but I thought about you on the last day of school. That makes me feel guilty. What's even worse is that I don't know if I should feel guilty.