Wow...ur 20 already.....
Some thoughts from me 2 u....
I dunno what it is about me, I have no problem making friends...I have plenty, but its that whole meeting potential romantic parnters thats kinda being neglected...
I'm sure everyone feels this way, I don't feel envy like I used 2 when I saw other ppl happy, it's just bittersweet for me. I know my time will come but it sure is taking its time...
I often feel like such an old soul...each epic/era interest me so, as do different cultures...I really love this world, enjoy this life...the people. Even though I believe most of the general public live life so blindly in thier narrow-mindness. It's both a good and bad thing that I'm able to see things ordinary people don't but I do feel so excluded at times that It makes me wish I were a child again. Blind and innocent, not knowing the harsh realities of life.
To the source that inspired this entry, I am getting old. I remember so cleary it all...god how time has flown. Starting at 16 its like a never ending full speed ride...and its not slowing down ever....
I will be 21 next year...what makes me feel so old? It's sometimes kids I see around me, or even better my cuzions...they have grown so much they are now teens...I love them lots...but I'm getting older and I'm sure they don't see me as the fun cool cuzion anymore, cuz they have thier friends now.
I was like that 2 in High School, wanted to spend lots of time with friends, but it wasn't till later that I realized that family are the ones there before and after....even more then friends....way more....it saddens me when some ppl do not see that.
I forgot the point of this blog. Either way I'm so happy with life right now, lots of good and bad things going on. I hope to finally close this never ending plaque that has been the source of my saddess for so many years. It has to change...now, well It has changed a little which is why I'm more happier...but it still needs to completey vanish from my life.
When that day comes I will be complete...so remember kids...Live Life It's Fullest Everyday!!
I dunno what it is about me, I have no problem making friends...I have plenty, but its that whole meeting potential romantic parnters thats kinda being neglected...
I'm sure everyone feels this way, I don't feel envy like I used 2 when I saw other ppl happy, it's just bittersweet for me. I know my time will come but it sure is taking its time...
I often feel like such an old soul...each epic/era interest me so, as do different cultures...I really love this world, enjoy this life...the people. Even though I believe most of the general public live life so blindly in thier narrow-mindness. It's both a good and bad thing that I'm able to see things ordinary people don't but I do feel so excluded at times that It makes me wish I were a child again. Blind and innocent, not knowing the harsh realities of life.
To the source that inspired this entry, I am getting old. I remember so cleary it all...god how time has flown. Starting at 16 its like a never ending full speed ride...and its not slowing down ever....
I will be 21 next year...what makes me feel so old? It's sometimes kids I see around me, or even better my cuzions...they have grown so much they are now teens...I love them lots...but I'm getting older and I'm sure they don't see me as the fun cool cuzion anymore, cuz they have thier friends now.
I was like that 2 in High School, wanted to spend lots of time with friends, but it wasn't till later that I realized that family are the ones there before and after....even more then friends....way more....it saddens me when some ppl do not see that.
I forgot the point of this blog. Either way I'm so happy with life right now, lots of good and bad things going on. I hope to finally close this never ending plaque that has been the source of my saddess for so many years. It has to change...now, well It has changed a little which is why I'm more happier...but it still needs to completey vanish from my life.
When that day comes I will be complete...so remember kids...Live Life It's Fullest Everyday!!