[Fic] Let's Break Up
Title: Let’s Break Up
Author: Ha-chan and her recent sadness (akinoyama )
Pairings: YabuHika, slight InooBu
Genre: ANGST
Summary: 5 Times Hikaru Thought about Break up + 1 Time He Told Yabu
Warnings: Unbetaed, terrible English,
Notes: 1. For YabuHika-thon (Prompt #52)
2. the 5 times is written in Hikaru's POV, the +1 is in 3rd person POV
3. For my brother who just broke up with his prospective wife…. T______T
4. The song is the translation of ‘Let’s Break Up’ by Lee Seung Gi (credits to android09)
1.
‘Inoo is like my fiancé.’
By the time I looked those words printed nicely on a magazine, my hands trembled without any command. As the statement started to get stuck somewhere in my head, I could tell my sight suddenly blurred. I could feel there was a sharp dagger stabbed right into my heart, making me so lifeless for a moment.
Slowly, I put the magazine back to its place and then leaned my head on the couch, feeling so tired. I tried to relax myself by closing my eyes and thought about anything else but I found it was useless. What I saw was simply the moment he said ‘I love you’ repeatedly when he tried to convince his love for me. I still remember the crack voice of his when he confessed and his disappointment when I said ‘You’re joking, aren’t you?’ He shook his head and with tears he repeated his confession to me again and again until I found myself gave up.
“Do you really love me, Kou?” I murmured softly, starting to doubt everything. “If you did, you wouldn’t do such thing, would you?” I sadly thought. “And if you have no love for me anymore, then… let’s end this.”
2.
Which JUMP member do you want to be a girlfriend?
Lightly, he picked your name. And to my surprise, you did the same to him. When the interviewer asked you the question, you right away mentioned his name with a happiness drawn on your face. You even straightly looked him in the eyes as if trying to convince him and the others that you were serious.
All the people chuckled when they saw how red his face when you picked his name.
What I could do back then was simply forcing a small smile. Neither of them ever realized how sad and hurt my heart was. I heard the one I loved chose other right in front of me. Thus, how could I stop myself not to think about him left me someday?
3.
Can you stop calling me in the middle of night?
I was surprised to know that you and him phoned each other.
So, this was the reason why I always could not reach you at those times. Did you know that I also called you during those times??? Did you know that he was not the only one who could get lonely??? You might find it strange as we met almost every day. But… I couldn’t help it. I also needed you when the night was coming. I always wanted to hear you said ‘Oyasumi’ before I went to sleep even though it was only through the phone. But… ‘till this day… after four years we were together… I never heard it for once. You preferred to have a chat with him.
“When will this be over?” With tears I whispered to no one.
4.
I finally figured out that you secretly made a song with him.
“Why should you keep it as a secret? Did I not deserve enough to know it until I had to find out it from our manager?”
I thought to myself again and again. I never bothered myself to ask you where you had spent your time these days. I just believed you needed time for yourself, but apparently you spent them with him, didn’t you?
“Kou… could you stop to make me think of breaking up?”
5.
I was sitting on the couch, waiting for him so eagerly. It was my birthday and he had promised me to come. As I heard the bell, I happily ran towards the door and opened it with a wide smile, wishing he would say ‘Happy Birthday’.
But…
“Hikaru… I’m sorry. I can’t accompany you tonight.”
I widened my eyes. “W-what?”
“Inoo just called. He said he had some trouble and he asked me to come over.”
I stayed in silence.
“Hikaru… please”. His voice’s crack when he called me. “I’m getting worried.”
I looked away.
“Hika, you know he’s so fragile.”
I sighed and felt he hugged me afterwards.
“Please… only this time.”
He begged to me.
“Do you know what day is today?” I asked.
“It’s Friday, isn’t it?”
My heart sulked hearing a light answer. He did not remember.
“What’s wrong?”
I shook my head, forcing a smile. “Nandemo nai.” I released him. “Go now.”
The moment the permission slipped out from me, I looked he beamed.
“Thanks… Hika. You’re the best. I love you.”
He said and pecked my cheek.
“I’ll call you later.”
That was the last words from him before leaving me.
I closed my door and sat alone on the couch.
“Now… you could say it so lightly, Kou.” I mumbled alone, recalling the way he said ‘I love you’. “I couldn’t feel your feelings ever again, Kou.” And I started to cry.
“You don’t even remember it’s my birthday.” I stared painfully at a cake in front of me. I had imagined it would be the best birthday I could get but the reality would not let me to have it.
“You just remember his.” I laughed at myself, remembering a happy birthday story Inoo told me this year.
“Why do I still keep waiting for him, seriously?” I wondered.
“What’s other proof do you need to make you realize his care for him is greater than for you?”
I heard a voice scolded me.
“Just break up with him already if you don’t want to get hurt more than this. If he’s his true happiness.”
That was the last thing my rational mind told me.
+1
Hikaru was sitting, waiting for his train all alone. He flipped up his phone and saw his and Yabu’s picture as the background. He faintly smiled as he found there was still no any message there. “You haven’t got up, have you?” He mumbled then turned off his phone.
Meanwhile… far from the station where Hikaru was at, Yabu just opened his eyes. He lazily got up and suddenly noticed there was a box on his table. He was sure the box was not there before he was going to sleep. And with the big curiosity he took the box.
‘Happy 22nd birthday… Kouta.’ That was what written on the top of the box. Yabu chuckled, he just remembered today was his birthday.
“What do you have for me, Hachibee?” Yabu excitedly said as he opened the box. He really expected the younger boy would give him something good as a present as he always did at his birthdays. But this time, Yabu frowned after he saw what was inside the box. It was only a white envelope.
He carefully pulled out the papers and read them.
Kouta…
Happy 22nd birthday!
I just finished writing a song. As promise, I let you to be the first one to know. It is also your birthday present. And I want you to sing it later… ^^
Yabu smiled when he read the first words from the letter but then his smile faded away exact at the time he read the title of the song Hikaru had written.
Let’s Break Up
Someone told me that we’re compatible
That we’ve met well
Someone told me that we’ll last forever
But that was then
Lie lie lie lie lie It was all a lie
Lie lie lie lie lie Everything
Lie lie lie lie lie Now.
Let’s break up Let’s not meet again
Even if sometimes we’re sad
We can only smile at the memories
Lastly, I’ve nothing else for you except this
Let’s live in pretense and denial from now on
Someone told me that memories are beautiful
But that was then
Lie lie lie lie lie It was all lie
Lie lie lie lie lie Everything
Lie lie lie lie lie Now.
Let’s break up Let’s not meet again
Even if sometimes we’re sad
We can only smile at the memories
Lastly, I’ve nothing else for you except this
Let’s live in pretense and denial from now on
Like the happiness we once had
I’ll leave all the happiness with you
Lie lie lie lie lie All the tears
Lie lie lie lie lie I’ll take it away
Lie lie lie lie lie
So that you’ll be able to smile
I’ve always lived for you
I know you better than anyone else
Now I’ll have to send you off for your own happiness
Forgetting the love we have shared
Let’s live like that
Let’s live like that
Yabu broadly brought his eyes open after reading his birthday song. He wondered all alone why Hikaru should write such song for his birthday. Why did Hikaru not write about a happy one for him? Why should Hikaru give this to him??? Why????
He quickly moved to the next paper, hoping Hikaru had a VERY GOOD ANSWER.
Saa… you’ve read the lyrics, haven’t you? And I’m pretty sure now you’re wondering what the hell I gave you such birthday present.
I’m going to answer it Kouta…
It’s not a song I wrote, Kou… it’s others. I’m sorry for lying at first. But that song is the best to represent my feelings right now…
Yabu-kun… I want us to break up…
Last night… I saw what you and Inoo did in our dressing room. He finally confessed his love for you, didn’t he??? He even kissed you afterwards. And I could tell you enjoyed it as you didn’t push him away.
It confirmed you love him back too, right?
Before this, I have seen all the signs of your love for him and vice versa. I noticed you care about him more than you care about me. You always remember little things about him than mine. And you look much happier when you’re with him than me as well. So… what’s more could I do??
Therefore, just like what the song says Yabu-kun…
Let’s break up… let’s not meet again…
All the tears I’ll take it away… So that you’ll be able to smile
I’ve always lived for you
I know you better than anyone else
Now I’ll have to send you off for your own happiness
Forgetting the love we have shared
Let’s live like that
Let’s live in pretense and denial from now on
This is my gift for your birthday… Yabu-kun…
YOUR FREEDOM for your happiness…
Sayonara…
Your ex secret lover…
Hikaru
P.S.
Don’t look for me to talk about this because I don’t want to and the fact I’m on my vocation now… to other city.
And by the time I return, we’re NO longer lovers… We’re FRIENDS… and you’re HIS
Yabu squeezed the letter angrily and ran out from his room, from his house. He pretended not to hear his mother yelled at him, asking where he was going to.
As he running, he tried to call Hikaru repeatedly, hoping a miracle Hikaru would kindly picked it up. But it was useless… his calls always reached the mail box. He did not care, though, he kept trying to reach him. He even fastened his steps to the nearest station at Hikaru’s residence.
He did not care the younger boy’s warning to not searching for him. He thought it was so stupid to obey the order if he wanted to get him back. He had to find him as soon as possible before he left. He was to explain everything about last night to Hikaru.
Luck, seemed not on his side, though. Due to frantic minds, he did not aware about his surrounding until he heard someone screamed. He stopped and looked up, seeing a heavy pipe was falling down to him. He knew he should step away… but he found himself stood still.
“I’m sorry… don’t go Hikaru…” was the last sentence he could utter before everything turned to black. And with that… he lost his chance to get his lover back.
At the station, Hikaru turned his head back for the last time before he entered his train. His eyes were wandering as if searching for someone he had been waiting for. “What are you looking for, Hikaru? He won’t come, you know that.” He thought to himself. And with a sigh he faced the door of the train and stepped in, leaving his heart there. Never did he know the one he loved was dying.
~OWARI~
P.S.
Sorry for breaking YabuHika up.... T_________T
Life isn't always full of happiness...
P.P.S
I actually planned to post this next month… but idk why… after I heard my brother’s plan to breaking up with his prospective wife… I decided to post it up…
Idk how my brother’s feeling for being cheated on by his beloved girlfriend… although I think they would get marry next year…
But… well… God may have another plan for my brother… He showed what kind of girl my brother loves before everything’s too late… Before he lives in pain and regrets for the rest of his life…
So… onii-chan…
I know… I’m not a good sister… I even didn’t by your side now…
But I hope… you can settle this problem with her parents, explain that it’s the best way for the two of you and she should get marry with her other boyfriend.
Just forget her slowly nee... I know when you have a girlfriend... you're really in love and always wish for marrying her.
I believe God has a good secret plan for you about your wife later. So... cheer up...
Author: Ha-chan and her recent sadness (akinoyama )
Pairings: YabuHika, slight InooBu
Genre: ANGST
Summary: 5 Times Hikaru Thought about Break up + 1 Time He Told Yabu
Warnings: Unbetaed, terrible English,
Notes: 1. For YabuHika-thon (Prompt #52)
2. the 5 times is written in Hikaru's POV, the +1 is in 3rd person POV
3. For my brother who just broke up with his prospective wife…. T______T
4. The song is the translation of ‘Let’s Break Up’ by Lee Seung Gi (credits to android09)
1.
‘Inoo is like my fiancé.’
By the time I looked those words printed nicely on a magazine, my hands trembled without any command. As the statement started to get stuck somewhere in my head, I could tell my sight suddenly blurred. I could feel there was a sharp dagger stabbed right into my heart, making me so lifeless for a moment.
Slowly, I put the magazine back to its place and then leaned my head on the couch, feeling so tired. I tried to relax myself by closing my eyes and thought about anything else but I found it was useless. What I saw was simply the moment he said ‘I love you’ repeatedly when he tried to convince his love for me. I still remember the crack voice of his when he confessed and his disappointment when I said ‘You’re joking, aren’t you?’ He shook his head and with tears he repeated his confession to me again and again until I found myself gave up.
“Do you really love me, Kou?” I murmured softly, starting to doubt everything. “If you did, you wouldn’t do such thing, would you?” I sadly thought. “And if you have no love for me anymore, then… let’s end this.”
2.
Which JUMP member do you want to be a girlfriend?
Lightly, he picked your name. And to my surprise, you did the same to him. When the interviewer asked you the question, you right away mentioned his name with a happiness drawn on your face. You even straightly looked him in the eyes as if trying to convince him and the others that you were serious.
All the people chuckled when they saw how red his face when you picked his name.
What I could do back then was simply forcing a small smile. Neither of them ever realized how sad and hurt my heart was. I heard the one I loved chose other right in front of me. Thus, how could I stop myself not to think about him left me someday?
3.
Can you stop calling me in the middle of night?
I was surprised to know that you and him phoned each other.
So, this was the reason why I always could not reach you at those times. Did you know that I also called you during those times??? Did you know that he was not the only one who could get lonely??? You might find it strange as we met almost every day. But… I couldn’t help it. I also needed you when the night was coming. I always wanted to hear you said ‘Oyasumi’ before I went to sleep even though it was only through the phone. But… ‘till this day… after four years we were together… I never heard it for once. You preferred to have a chat with him.
“When will this be over?” With tears I whispered to no one.
4.
I finally figured out that you secretly made a song with him.
“Why should you keep it as a secret? Did I not deserve enough to know it until I had to find out it from our manager?”
I thought to myself again and again. I never bothered myself to ask you where you had spent your time these days. I just believed you needed time for yourself, but apparently you spent them with him, didn’t you?
“Kou… could you stop to make me think of breaking up?”
5.
I was sitting on the couch, waiting for him so eagerly. It was my birthday and he had promised me to come. As I heard the bell, I happily ran towards the door and opened it with a wide smile, wishing he would say ‘Happy Birthday’.
But…
“Hikaru… I’m sorry. I can’t accompany you tonight.”
I widened my eyes. “W-what?”
“Inoo just called. He said he had some trouble and he asked me to come over.”
I stayed in silence.
“Hikaru… please”. His voice’s crack when he called me. “I’m getting worried.”
I looked away.
“Hika, you know he’s so fragile.”
I sighed and felt he hugged me afterwards.
“Please… only this time.”
He begged to me.
“Do you know what day is today?” I asked.
“It’s Friday, isn’t it?”
My heart sulked hearing a light answer. He did not remember.
“What’s wrong?”
I shook my head, forcing a smile. “Nandemo nai.” I released him. “Go now.”
The moment the permission slipped out from me, I looked he beamed.
“Thanks… Hika. You’re the best. I love you.”
He said and pecked my cheek.
“I’ll call you later.”
That was the last words from him before leaving me.
I closed my door and sat alone on the couch.
“Now… you could say it so lightly, Kou.” I mumbled alone, recalling the way he said ‘I love you’. “I couldn’t feel your feelings ever again, Kou.” And I started to cry.
“You don’t even remember it’s my birthday.” I stared painfully at a cake in front of me. I had imagined it would be the best birthday I could get but the reality would not let me to have it.
“You just remember his.” I laughed at myself, remembering a happy birthday story Inoo told me this year.
“Why do I still keep waiting for him, seriously?” I wondered.
“What’s other proof do you need to make you realize his care for him is greater than for you?”
I heard a voice scolded me.
“Just break up with him already if you don’t want to get hurt more than this. If he’s his true happiness.”
That was the last thing my rational mind told me.
+1
Hikaru was sitting, waiting for his train all alone. He flipped up his phone and saw his and Yabu’s picture as the background. He faintly smiled as he found there was still no any message there. “You haven’t got up, have you?” He mumbled then turned off his phone.
Meanwhile… far from the station where Hikaru was at, Yabu just opened his eyes. He lazily got up and suddenly noticed there was a box on his table. He was sure the box was not there before he was going to sleep. And with the big curiosity he took the box.
‘Happy 22nd birthday… Kouta.’ That was what written on the top of the box. Yabu chuckled, he just remembered today was his birthday.
“What do you have for me, Hachibee?” Yabu excitedly said as he opened the box. He really expected the younger boy would give him something good as a present as he always did at his birthdays. But this time, Yabu frowned after he saw what was inside the box. It was only a white envelope.
He carefully pulled out the papers and read them.
Kouta…
Happy 22nd birthday!
I just finished writing a song. As promise, I let you to be the first one to know. It is also your birthday present. And I want you to sing it later… ^^
Yabu smiled when he read the first words from the letter but then his smile faded away exact at the time he read the title of the song Hikaru had written.
Let’s Break Up
Someone told me that we’re compatible
That we’ve met well
Someone told me that we’ll last forever
But that was then
Lie lie lie lie lie It was all a lie
Lie lie lie lie lie Everything
Lie lie lie lie lie Now.
Let’s break up Let’s not meet again
Even if sometimes we’re sad
We can only smile at the memories
Lastly, I’ve nothing else for you except this
Let’s live in pretense and denial from now on
Someone told me that memories are beautiful
But that was then
Lie lie lie lie lie It was all lie
Lie lie lie lie lie Everything
Lie lie lie lie lie Now.
Let’s break up Let’s not meet again
Even if sometimes we’re sad
We can only smile at the memories
Lastly, I’ve nothing else for you except this
Let’s live in pretense and denial from now on
Like the happiness we once had
I’ll leave all the happiness with you
Lie lie lie lie lie All the tears
Lie lie lie lie lie I’ll take it away
Lie lie lie lie lie
So that you’ll be able to smile
I’ve always lived for you
I know you better than anyone else
Now I’ll have to send you off for your own happiness
Forgetting the love we have shared
Let’s live like that
Let’s live like that
Yabu broadly brought his eyes open after reading his birthday song. He wondered all alone why Hikaru should write such song for his birthday. Why did Hikaru not write about a happy one for him? Why should Hikaru give this to him??? Why????
He quickly moved to the next paper, hoping Hikaru had a VERY GOOD ANSWER.
Saa… you’ve read the lyrics, haven’t you? And I’m pretty sure now you’re wondering what the hell I gave you such birthday present.
I’m going to answer it Kouta…
It’s not a song I wrote, Kou… it’s others. I’m sorry for lying at first. But that song is the best to represent my feelings right now…
Yabu-kun… I want us to break up…
Last night… I saw what you and Inoo did in our dressing room. He finally confessed his love for you, didn’t he??? He even kissed you afterwards. And I could tell you enjoyed it as you didn’t push him away.
It confirmed you love him back too, right?
Before this, I have seen all the signs of your love for him and vice versa. I noticed you care about him more than you care about me. You always remember little things about him than mine. And you look much happier when you’re with him than me as well. So… what’s more could I do??
Therefore, just like what the song says Yabu-kun…
Let’s break up… let’s not meet again…
All the tears I’ll take it away… So that you’ll be able to smile
I’ve always lived for you
I know you better than anyone else
Now I’ll have to send you off for your own happiness
Forgetting the love we have shared
Let’s live like that
Let’s live in pretense and denial from now on
This is my gift for your birthday… Yabu-kun…
YOUR FREEDOM for your happiness…
Sayonara…
Your ex secret lover…
Hikaru
P.S.
Don’t look for me to talk about this because I don’t want to and the fact I’m on my vocation now… to other city.
And by the time I return, we’re NO longer lovers… We’re FRIENDS… and you’re HIS
Yabu squeezed the letter angrily and ran out from his room, from his house. He pretended not to hear his mother yelled at him, asking where he was going to.
As he running, he tried to call Hikaru repeatedly, hoping a miracle Hikaru would kindly picked it up. But it was useless… his calls always reached the mail box. He did not care, though, he kept trying to reach him. He even fastened his steps to the nearest station at Hikaru’s residence.
He did not care the younger boy’s warning to not searching for him. He thought it was so stupid to obey the order if he wanted to get him back. He had to find him as soon as possible before he left. He was to explain everything about last night to Hikaru.
Luck, seemed not on his side, though. Due to frantic minds, he did not aware about his surrounding until he heard someone screamed. He stopped and looked up, seeing a heavy pipe was falling down to him. He knew he should step away… but he found himself stood still.
“I’m sorry… don’t go Hikaru…” was the last sentence he could utter before everything turned to black. And with that… he lost his chance to get his lover back.
At the station, Hikaru turned his head back for the last time before he entered his train. His eyes were wandering as if searching for someone he had been waiting for. “What are you looking for, Hikaru? He won’t come, you know that.” He thought to himself. And with a sigh he faced the door of the train and stepped in, leaving his heart there. Never did he know the one he loved was dying.
~OWARI~
P.S.
Sorry for breaking YabuHika up.... T_________T
Life isn't always full of happiness...
P.P.S
I actually planned to post this next month… but idk why… after I heard my brother’s plan to breaking up with his prospective wife… I decided to post it up…
Idk how my brother’s feeling for being cheated on by his beloved girlfriend… although I think they would get marry next year…
But… well… God may have another plan for my brother… He showed what kind of girl my brother loves before everything’s too late… Before he lives in pain and regrets for the rest of his life…
So… onii-chan…
I know… I’m not a good sister… I even didn’t by your side now…
But I hope… you can settle this problem with her parents, explain that it’s the best way for the two of you and she should get marry with her other boyfriend.
Just forget her slowly nee... I know when you have a girlfriend... you're really in love and always wish for marrying her.
I believe God has a good secret plan for you about your wife later. So... cheer up...