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i haven't cried that much in a long time and i can't even find the exact point of origin for my sadness. just a few possible contributing factors. but it's nothing that having all the money in the world couldn't solve. or even just a car. or more than three friends.
i try to speak but i can't cuz i'll just start crying so i can't talk to my dad like i actually really want to and that makes me even more sad and he's so nice to me and i wish i could give back everything i took and earn back all of the trust and respect i fritted away. i want to die but not until i've made myself better because i don't want to be remembered as this horrible thing that i am. at least that's something right?
is it something?
i could be sad now and sleep through tomorrow or i could sleep through now and be sad tomorrow which one is worse i don't know but at seven pm tomorrow i will get a hug and a kiss from a boy that loves me and that will at least calm me down a little bit.
but it's still not all the money in the world.
i try to speak but i can't cuz i'll just start crying so i can't talk to my dad like i actually really want to and that makes me even more sad and he's so nice to me and i wish i could give back everything i took and earn back all of the trust and respect i fritted away. i want to die but not until i've made myself better because i don't want to be remembered as this horrible thing that i am. at least that's something right?
is it something?
i could be sad now and sleep through tomorrow or i could sleep through now and be sad tomorrow which one is worse i don't know but at seven pm tomorrow i will get a hug and a kiss from a boy that loves me and that will at least calm me down a little bit.
but it's still not all the money in the world.