boredom causing random thoughts
i'm soooo bored! this is the first saturday i've had off...and i'm really really really bored...maybe i'll go to the fireworks tomorrow. I forgot monday is labor day..so i don't work. I should have volunteered to work today. But then again..i don't know...
i'm taking a break from studying. I just got done studying chinese at around 130..ill start japanese really soon.
i told my dad about me going to visit a few school in philly he seems sad. but he understands i really need to go out in the world alone (kind of spoiled) though i am the oldest all i have to do is run to my dad or grandma and they'll give me what i need. And sometimes i tend to spend my money up on purpose because i know all i have to do is make a phone call to dad and he'll give me what i need.
its' weird..though i do that i know how to be responsible when i need to. I don't know, maybe its this small part of me that still wants to depend on them, and though i can, i need to get out in the world. I'm afraid of going to a place were i have no family. But then again i'll be really close to my cousin in NJ so i won't be far from family..i have family everywhere >.>
i'm taking a break from studying. I just got done studying chinese at around 130..ill start japanese really soon.
i told my dad about me going to visit a few school in philly he seems sad. but he understands i really need to go out in the world alone (kind of spoiled) though i am the oldest all i have to do is run to my dad or grandma and they'll give me what i need. And sometimes i tend to spend my money up on purpose because i know all i have to do is make a phone call to dad and he'll give me what i need.
its' weird..though i do that i know how to be responsible when i need to. I don't know, maybe its this small part of me that still wants to depend on them, and though i can, i need to get out in the world. I'm afraid of going to a place were i have no family. But then again i'll be really close to my cousin in NJ so i won't be far from family..i have family everywhere >.>