I did the unforgivable
Today I did something I will regret most likely to the end of my days.
I had a guinea pig. He was born at my home. The cutest guinea pig you can imagine, we called him a princess, because he was such a cutie. Later, we discovered, he is a prince, actually. We named him Sunny, because he was like sun in our lives. He was very friendly, social, loved people and thrived on being petted. We lived together for four years, two months and 17 days and then I did the most unforgivable thing. I left him at the vet's to let him put to sleep. He was getting old and had a weak heart, he wasn't responding to treatment very well anymore, we were going to the vet every week for a check up. I gave him medicine twice a day, fed him water though a syrinage, but today, when we were on check up suddenly we got from giving him corticoids to putting him to sleep. He was crawling to me on the examination table, because he trusted me and I betrayed his trust. I couldn't bear to see him sleeping in my hands, so I left him there, entirely alone. I will never forgive myself for being so insensitive. In order to make it easier for me, I left him there alone. When I realized it outside, how stupid I was, I was afraid to return, because the doc said, they would put him to sleep asap so he doesn't suffer. In my eyes this is an unforgivable breach of trust, betrayal of the worst kind. I believe that my decision was probably right, but I should have petted him the last time, stay with him until the end, not make it easier for me. I feel like after the years of love, I betrayed him. I am very sorry for being such a coward. My little cutie pie, Drobatko moje krasne, I am incredibly sorry, so so sorry.
I had a guinea pig. He was born at my home. The cutest guinea pig you can imagine, we called him a princess, because he was such a cutie. Later, we discovered, he is a prince, actually. We named him Sunny, because he was like sun in our lives. He was very friendly, social, loved people and thrived on being petted. We lived together for four years, two months and 17 days and then I did the most unforgivable thing. I left him at the vet's to let him put to sleep. He was getting old and had a weak heart, he wasn't responding to treatment very well anymore, we were going to the vet every week for a check up. I gave him medicine twice a day, fed him water though a syrinage, but today, when we were on check up suddenly we got from giving him corticoids to putting him to sleep. He was crawling to me on the examination table, because he trusted me and I betrayed his trust. I couldn't bear to see him sleeping in my hands, so I left him there, entirely alone. I will never forgive myself for being so insensitive. In order to make it easier for me, I left him there alone. When I realized it outside, how stupid I was, I was afraid to return, because the doc said, they would put him to sleep asap so he doesn't suffer. In my eyes this is an unforgivable breach of trust, betrayal of the worst kind. I believe that my decision was probably right, but I should have petted him the last time, stay with him until the end, not make it easier for me. I feel like after the years of love, I betrayed him. I am very sorry for being such a coward. My little cutie pie, Drobatko moje krasne, I am incredibly sorry, so so sorry.