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Hmmm. I think my life is getting ripe for a change again.
My flatmate Eve is still living by me, but she's planning to go to Canada in January and honestly...I envy her SO much that she can take this easy way out.
My own inability to fulfill my life in any way makes me feel like crying. Maybe I just need a break or a change. I feel like I should make a change in my life, yet I am just afraid to.
Me and my two friends, we think of going to Japan the next year in October for about three weeks and I really, really want to go there. I won't do anything that could jeopardize this trip. This includes my thinking of changing my job. Yet at the same time I can't imagine holding out in my job for another 9 months. Don't get me wrong, my job is OK, people are great, only the boss is a little jerkish at times (like all bosses, I think)...I just feel like I am stuck. I hate the idea that when I want to take a trip somewhere I need to save money for one whole year and then I will have totally nothing (yes, I plan to spend BIG money there), but it bugs me that more stupid people have better jobs and better careers. I simply don't know even where to start to change my life.
I guess I am a little burned out. At the moment I feel really fed up with my life. I am 25 almost and have no boyfriend (and never actually had one, yes I am so pitiful), no one to love, job that is not satisfactory and I feel like I am missing my chance. Yet I am afraid to take it.
Today, I realised I wish Eve was already gone. Her talk of going away, earning money in Canada (and we are talking BIG money here) makes me feel irritated for not having the courage. I want to pride myself that I am taking the harder route by staying here, but deep down, I just feel it's more cowardly, because I am afraid.
I was thinking of studying for MBA the next year, yet again, I am not sure if I take on a new job. If I can travel to Japan, if I have freedom. The original plan was to stay in my current job until I return from Japan and then re-think, but I am not sure if I can...yet I can't imagine that I stay one more year. Any ideas? I think I need a sound advice from someone who is not involved so much.
My flatmate Eve is still living by me, but she's planning to go to Canada in January and honestly...I envy her SO much that she can take this easy way out.
My own inability to fulfill my life in any way makes me feel like crying. Maybe I just need a break or a change. I feel like I should make a change in my life, yet I am just afraid to.
Me and my two friends, we think of going to Japan the next year in October for about three weeks and I really, really want to go there. I won't do anything that could jeopardize this trip. This includes my thinking of changing my job. Yet at the same time I can't imagine holding out in my job for another 9 months. Don't get me wrong, my job is OK, people are great, only the boss is a little jerkish at times (like all bosses, I think)...I just feel like I am stuck. I hate the idea that when I want to take a trip somewhere I need to save money for one whole year and then I will have totally nothing (yes, I plan to spend BIG money there), but it bugs me that more stupid people have better jobs and better careers. I simply don't know even where to start to change my life.
I guess I am a little burned out. At the moment I feel really fed up with my life. I am 25 almost and have no boyfriend (and never actually had one, yes I am so pitiful), no one to love, job that is not satisfactory and I feel like I am missing my chance. Yet I am afraid to take it.
Today, I realised I wish Eve was already gone. Her talk of going away, earning money in Canada (and we are talking BIG money here) makes me feel irritated for not having the courage. I want to pride myself that I am taking the harder route by staying here, but deep down, I just feel it's more cowardly, because I am afraid.
I was thinking of studying for MBA the next year, yet again, I am not sure if I take on a new job. If I can travel to Japan, if I have freedom. The original plan was to stay in my current job until I return from Japan and then re-think, but I am not sure if I can...yet I can't imagine that I stay one more year. Any ideas? I think I need a sound advice from someone who is not involved so much.