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time to be a depressed little boy. im a fucking wreck. i can't stop crying. i left work because i cried during a call. im so torn up inside. i don't want her to get hurt and its inevitable. he hurt her before he's going to hurt her again and i can't see her get hurt. i want her to happy. i thought she was happy with me. i thought i meant the world to her. i thought she had never been happier. i thought it would last longer. i didn't think it would end like this. he's never going to love her the way i love her. he's never going to treat her the way i treated her. i saw about 20 jeep cherokees today in the span of 10 minutes on the bus. i can't stop thinking about her. no matter what i do. she was my everything and now its nothing. i don't want it to be nothing. i want there to be something. i want to mean something. i don't want to be alone. i'm not ready yet. maybe she'll open her eyes. maybe she'll realize how much i mean to her and how right for each other we are. maybe we'll get back together. in the mean time, i'll keep my fingers crossed.