Why (June 11, 2004)

[akiko_kalla]

What happens when you flip your internal clock back around. :P

If I had stayed,
would you have wanted me to heal you?
If I had stayed,
would you have wanted me to free you?

I cannot heal you,
For I do not hurt,
I cannot free you,
For I've no cage.

I want you to learn to live,
Knowing the truth,
I want you to be happy,
But you must be happy alone.

For I am not your happiness.
I am not your saulvation.
I can do nothing for you
Except give you the illusion.

I refuse to cage you,
I refuse to stunt you,
I refuse to lie to you,
But is that what you want?

I want you to laugh, really laugh,
As loudly and freely as you wish.
I want you to be independent,
Confident in who you are.

If I am your everything,
There is no place for you.
You would not exist.

Are you scared to move forward?
Are you scared to change?

But I am not a person who can cage.
I am not a person who can only take.
I am not a person who will live illusions.

You were lost without me,
Because you didn't realize
You were lost with me.

I cannot save you;
I am not a god.
I cannot heal you;
The wounds are within.
I will not tell you who you are;
For to do so would destroy what is left of you.

Do not ask me what I want.
Do not ask me who to be.
Do not ask anymore.

Live your life, freely.
Live your life, for you.
Live your life, independently.
Live...

You could not see so long as I stayed,
the viel would remain.
I could not stay.

To stay meant to leave behind myself,
to abandon the feelings I had for you,
to hurt you in ways you were familiar.

I did not leave because I hate,
I did not leave because I was mad,
I did not leave because my heart changed.

I left because I want you to heal...