UPDATE JOURNAL
been a few days.
so, i went to cliff's on saturday night despite my illness. we played videogames, and it was nice to see my buddies again. we played mariokart all night/day. cliff was really sick, and mostly stayed in bed. we watched the Kenshin movie where he dies. Molly started feeling sick on sun morning. sucky.
so, on saturday night Alley kept txt messaging me on my phone. and i said some really insane things, like about how much i really didnt mind that she was suffering over this whole situation. it was really easy to be the usual cold Vic when i was txt messaging. theres cold Vic, and theres warm Vic. most people dont see the latter. ANYHOWS, after i finished telling her that i really didnt wanna be her friend, she called me.
i yelled at her for a bit, until i realized she was sobbing. id never heard her cry so hard. i didnt feel BAD, i just felt MEMORIES. about how much i had loved her at one point, and how the weekends were such a happy time cause id get to see her. how much love id put into drawings id make for her. it kind of broke down my defenses. i apologized and she stopped crying and whatnot. ill tell you though, that flood of memories was insane. i was telling her some positive thing, then my phone died. she called me the next day, and we talked for what felt like 5 minutes when it was really an hour. just like old days. she was probably suffering through it, but im sure i entertained her. we're going to the lilac festival this weekend. my parents called me a dick today because my mom was telling everyone about how she showed up at my door, with my stuff. my father still refers to her as his future daughter in law. pisses me off.
anyway, havent spoken to Abby in a while. im waiting for my new credit card, so i can fix my phone. and ive pretty much just been sleeping all day anyway. hope she understands..
ive decided some things
well im definetly starting school this fall whether it be MCC or RIT. dont care which, i need to get my ass in there.
im buying a CAR to find a decent JOB this summer to make some serious money.
gotta get my license, its pathetic, im 19 and no license.
well seeing as how my life paces itself like a vin diesel movie, (i really fucking hate vin diesel) ill probably have an update tomorrow.
oh yeah, my father wants to take me and my brother to watch episode 3 tomorrow at midnight. we'll see if he pulls through.
so, i went to cliff's on saturday night despite my illness. we played videogames, and it was nice to see my buddies again. we played mariokart all night/day. cliff was really sick, and mostly stayed in bed. we watched the Kenshin movie where he dies. Molly started feeling sick on sun morning. sucky.
so, on saturday night Alley kept txt messaging me on my phone. and i said some really insane things, like about how much i really didnt mind that she was suffering over this whole situation. it was really easy to be the usual cold Vic when i was txt messaging. theres cold Vic, and theres warm Vic. most people dont see the latter. ANYHOWS, after i finished telling her that i really didnt wanna be her friend, she called me.
i yelled at her for a bit, until i realized she was sobbing. id never heard her cry so hard. i didnt feel BAD, i just felt MEMORIES. about how much i had loved her at one point, and how the weekends were such a happy time cause id get to see her. how much love id put into drawings id make for her. it kind of broke down my defenses. i apologized and she stopped crying and whatnot. ill tell you though, that flood of memories was insane. i was telling her some positive thing, then my phone died. she called me the next day, and we talked for what felt like 5 minutes when it was really an hour. just like old days. she was probably suffering through it, but im sure i entertained her. we're going to the lilac festival this weekend. my parents called me a dick today because my mom was telling everyone about how she showed up at my door, with my stuff. my father still refers to her as his future daughter in law. pisses me off.
anyway, havent spoken to Abby in a while. im waiting for my new credit card, so i can fix my phone. and ive pretty much just been sleeping all day anyway. hope she understands..
ive decided some things
well im definetly starting school this fall whether it be MCC or RIT. dont care which, i need to get my ass in there.
im buying a CAR to find a decent JOB this summer to make some serious money.
gotta get my license, its pathetic, im 19 and no license.
well seeing as how my life paces itself like a vin diesel movie, (i really fucking hate vin diesel) ill probably have an update tomorrow.
oh yeah, my father wants to take me and my brother to watch episode 3 tomorrow at midnight. we'll see if he pulls through.