"TAO=Wayward" (the year-end reflection...)
March 20, 2009
Friday
Friday in the Second Week of Lent...
10:00 am;
seven hours before the Baccelaureate Mass...
seven hours before the undergrads (including me?) finish their Final exams... (exept for those who still have exams the next day)
seven hours before the formal end of AY 2008-2009, supposed to be my last year in USTe...
seven hours before I lose my chance for reconciliation...
seven hours before I lose primary contact of my professors for my Mirokulean Tasks...
seven hours before I lose the easy way of accomplishing the Mirokulean Tasks...
seven hours before I lose sight of my fellow seniors...
seven hours and still confused...
and...
seven hours before I lose the "fight towards graduation"...
in the past few weeks, I have been doing my "Mirokulean" tasks... actually, and in case if you're wondering, the "Mirokulean" Tasks are actually my academic "hinderances" towards graduation... mga "academic deficiencies" kung sasabihin ng iba... bakit Mirokulean... well as I have explained in my note in Facebook; dapat Herculean ang gagamitin ko... pero naisip ko... "bakit herculean? diba ako si Miroku... kaya dapat Mirokulean!
" ayun... surge of imagination (read as "being corny") perhaps... I dunno... ehehehe...
well going back, I really do have a HERCULEAN este, MIROKULEAN task to do...
... and that is to clear 33 units of INCs...
well as we speak, and thank God! I only need to accomplish 15 units; almost half of what I needed to accomplish... I know, madami pa din, nakakapagod, nakaka-stress at nakakatakot; but I still need to accomplish it...
now if you are wondering, how/why did I have these? well the answer is simple... (sh** nababarok na ako... hay... dala siguro ng lungkot habang ginagawa ito...) naging pabaya ako...
I can't totally blame everyone or anything in particular... I always tell this to my partner in life, Sango "alam mo, sa lahat ng problema, sa lahat ng mga nangyayari ngayon... lahat tayo may pagkukulang... ultimo sila na mga w*****-k***** kong mga kaklase, sa Pax Romana; yung mga tumulong sa akin doon, sa mga walang kwentang mga officers at mga miyembro na nandoon, sa mga professors ko, yung subject mismo, yung mga taong humahawak, figuratuvely at literally, sa akin, ang mga magulang mo, ang mga magulang ko, ultimo mga kaibigan ko, mga taong naging malapit sa akin, mga taong malapit sa puso at isipan ko... pati na din ikaw na pinakamamahal ko at lalong-lalo na ako na siyang gumawa ng lahat ng ito... lahat tayo may pagkukulang..."
I personally do not really know why did I ended up like this...
basta one thing's for sure;
I am slowly and humbly accept the fact that I really created this mess and that I need to fix this up; ergo, I am accepting this god-forsaken responsibility of having this...
ano ngayon?
ayun... kung hindi man ako makakagraduate this march (sa AB) at april (sa Education), kahit hindi na din ako maka-graduate sa May... edi ok lang... tanggapin kung ano na ang nanjan... "we'll cross the bridge when we get there" sabi nga ng iba...
I have never regretted in sacrificing my academics for the survival-revival of my organization...
I think its out of love and passion for the youth and for the organization, and of my passion for liturgy and in serving the Church why I chose to have this kind of life...
call it crazy, wrong, exaggerated, useless, irrational, twisted or weird...
but I really enjoy serving my organization 200+, 500+ or even 1000%
for me Pax Romana had been my classmates, my blockmates, my organization, my barkada, and most of all my family for the past three/four years of my stay in USTe...
Pax gave me the opportunity to act as I would have and move according to what is being expected of me, it gave me more opportunities in life, in living life in particular...
Pax taught me, either the easy way or the hard way to be a person for others... it taught me that if you really love doing something, you need to make sacrifices...
there wouldn't be any Miroku Akihabara (a.k.a Kuya Louie, Sir Louie, Gong Master or even Master Louie) if Pax would not be as hyper or as revived compared to what I saw the organization some four years ago...
In closing, I would really like to thank my friends, my co-officers at central, to my brothers and sisters in pax romana, to my mentors, to my professors, to the people close to my heart and mind, to my parents, to the people who helped me, to the people who backstabbed me, hurt me and to those who would or planning to take me down, to my Barkada at Pax, to my closest friends, to my mentors at UST-IR, to my professor-friends, to my "Nanay", Ma'am Marielyn, to my "Kuya" Sir Tsard, and most of all to my partner in life, Sango...
kung wala kayo, siguro wala na ako... hahahaha...
to my fellow graduating students...
"GRAD PICS!!!" wahahaha! enge ako!!!! kahit soft-copy!
good luck sa labas ah... wag makakalimot sa mga natutunan sa USTe...
sa mga gragraduate na "dumaan" sa akin... I mean sa mga humingi ng advice at tulong at natulungan ko... wag nyu sana ako makakalimutan ah... yung mga "sermon" ko pati na din yung mga moments naten... hehehehe... magyabang na kung magyayabang! pag nakapasa sa board o LET, pahanda ah! may YM, Multiply, Plurk, Facebook, Friendster naman kayo eh... pwede nyu din i-text si Sango... hehehehe... same din sa first sweldo! hahahaha!
pero seriously...
make your alma mater (and your friends and parents) proud!
wag kalilimutan na humingi ng tulong sa KANIYA pag namomoblema...
hay...
ano na ba ang susunod? Pax? ehehehehe... (sana manalo... ehehehehe...
joke!)
sana matapos na din ang mga Mirokulean ko!!!!!!!!!!
nga pala, bago ko makalimutan, bakit naman TAO=Wayward ang title?
well, TAO is a song... kanta ng favorite na banda ako... Do As Infinity...
para ito sa mga kaibigan ko na aalis na... (at ewan ko kung ako din kasama...)
I have posted this already sa video section dito, at ito din yung background song sa multiply site ko...
Song of Farewell ito sa madaling salita... nasa baba yung "rough" translation... sana maka-relate... ganda kasi ng message ng song eh... Sango connects this song to the poem "The Road Not Taken" ni Robert Frost (actually, Sango said its Road less taken...)
ja!